My Son's Autism

I knew something had changed, I wanted someone to blame To hear news like that, was like getting hit by a baseball bat The dreams that I had for tomorrow, all just suddenly seem borrowed I would give up anything, because he is my everything If I could take this away from him I would, I would do anything that I could I am supposed to be his rock, the one he can count on when things go dark I lay in bed crying, feeling as if I'm dying I hate watching him go through this, I just want to give him a hug and a kiss I want to take him in my arms and hold him tight, promising to always fight Sometimes we cry together, I will love him forever I feel as if part of him is missing, it will always keep me guessing I'm trying to keep things under control, when all I want to do is crawl into a hole I pray everyday for a "cure," knowing that his life is so pure Please let me wake up from this nightmare, away from all the despair