My Silence

A hundred words are trapped behind my tight lips A hundred words lined up to make my mind speak A thousand words are desperate to get off my chest A thousand words to make my heart’s feelings manifest Words that are stuck in my throat Words held back on second thought Words never to be spoken or waiting to be a note of cheer A suppressed voice is loud in my mind but silent to your ear My silence holds back words that can injure My silence a pause before words that are pure Some mistake my silence for weakness They mistake my silence for cowardice But when loudness means fear, silence can be courage Silence can be golden, when noise means wreckage My silence is a search in a mental lexicon Gathering words to match an emotion My silence can mean rejection My silence can mean acceptance My silence can flip from guilt to pride My silence can enable evil or spread love My silence can cause strife or create calmness My silence can absorb pain or render forgiveness My silence can be insurmountable than walls My silence can have more meaning than words