My Secrets

Hey My Name Is Nancy .

These Are My Secrets…

I’ve been treated as an adult since the 5th grade.
I use to cut myself…
Because I was expected to be more than I can actually handle.
I’ve attempted suicide by trying to over dose before…
More then 3 times…
Because I couldn’t find the reason to live no more.
I have a smile on my face everyday…
So I can cover all the pain and hurt I have inside.
I’ve opened up about my sexuality, with liking both genders…
But I can’t ever tell my parents,
Because they’re somewhat against it.
I think I’m starting to starve myself again…
Because at least twice a week, my parents calls me fat.
I started drinking when I was in the 9th grade…
Because those were the only time where I didn’t have expectations.
I cry myself to sleep every night…
Because I feel like I’m a disappointment
Because I feel like there’s no point in living
Because I can’t handle this anymore.


( A side Note )
I have more things to say, but I can’t find the guts to say it, because I’ve done things that 
I’ve regret and I am ashamed of. Everyone has. People all over are going through so much at 
a young age, and some of us are taking it for granted. Now a days, especially in high school, 
kids are very cruel, and don’t usually think before saying things hurtful. I really think that 
many of you people before judging other people should get to know their life story first. Many 
people have gone through things you can’t imagine, so don’t add on to their worries.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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September 4, 2010 at 10:39 PM
You have been very brave and truthful to write your secrets Nancy. Just know that Jesus loves you and that He said in His word, "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone." So none of us can judge you. We all have our own problems. But God can help us with them if we ask Him. Love Scarlett
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