My Realization

FUTURE) It rained so hard the day I finally gave up on us I barely remember that day I barely remember your face Yet memories of your touch still remains PAST) July 13 A panic so uncontrollable because I was meeting you for the first time I was so afraid to love again I just hoped it would work out this time FUTURE) I hate you and all the lies you told Yet without your embrace I feel kind of cold You took my innocence away and walked out the door You left me feeling empty and wondering If I did something wrong PAST) Sinking I've never felt this happy since the day we met my life has been filled with joy and smiling I never want to let go god you smell so good FUTURE) You were being distant less phone calls short text messages The tender way you touched me was becoming rough You became more demanding I forsaw the ending approaching PAST) August 2 It was a tuesday when I let you take it away I've never felt so relieved yet so torn about my decision At the same time I wanted you to love me and make love to me like this forever FUTURE) After the first time it was all you could think about there was no more cuddling you wanted my body and my heart came in 5th place to all your other hobbies I felt used. PAST) Sometimes I wonder if you don't care anymore I've never been this scared to lose someone like this before It feels like the same cycle again why does love continue to avoid me I'm not happy with this trend FUTURE) It rained so hard the day I finally gave up on us I barely remember your face anymore But my heart will never forget you cause undeneath the bandaid the bleeding scar that's trying to heal is your fault. MY OUTCOME) ON THE OUTSIDE I'M BEYONCE SINGING TO THE LEFT TO THE LEFT ON THE INSIDE I'M DEFLATING THIS IS JUST ANOTHER SCAR THEY MAY NEVER MEND THIS IS MY REALIZATION