My Poems Pacify Me

MY POEMS PACIFY ME It’s welcome pouring my feelings here The wind that blows off my feeling here has no landing With a strong hand that blows me to the edge It makes me numb when I want to speak Trying hard to listen with ear that have gone deaf The bats see clearly than me because my eye is blind Trying to understand but my mind on stray can’t focus At that moment my whole body ceases to function I became a living dead person in a dead living place This is what happens when anger takes control of me. It’s awkward but more unwelcome when my body over-reacts The wind blowing off my feeling starts searching for a destination It’s worse when that strong wind blows me off the top of reasoning That is when my mouth will want to speak as well as shout My ears will hear all that’s to hear even words never spoken of My eyes will see more clearly than an eagle even sees things unseen I absolutely understand everything even when there is nothing there to understand At that moment; blood surges through my veins in a rush like a rushing storm My body over functions that I hear, see, feel, say and act out of control That’s what happens when am frustrated and upset. This is the part of my life I carefully always want to avoid It’s unfortunate as well as impossible; I can’t avoid a final destination Sometimes I succeed in avoiding the part of me I don’t want me to know exists Sometimes I fail in avoiding it because the same me makes it happen again and … It’s scary to know I want to kill myself so as not to see the next second and still…. Its worse I want to kill someone when am angry so as to pacify myself When I can’t do all these, I settle to destroying things & breaking glasses to classes I don’t want to fight if it’s a he; the aftermath will be fatter than fatal It’s worse if it’s a she; I don’t know where to start; stopping will be grave junction That moment; all I do is go somewhere quite & complain to my poems that listen That’s the only place I pour my feelings without regret… My poems pacify me… …Lordvip… …D’ Poetic Beast…