My Pain

I truly believe that I was only created, just to feel nothing but heartache darkness and gut wrenching unbearable pain and sadness only to be ing destroyed!!!!!!!! I am an unbearable chaotic ing mess of dark demented unthinkable thoughts my thoughts make other people's nightmares look like muther ing sugar roses and God dam lollyingpops!!!! And when this destructive horrendous darkness comes it pours through me turning everything dark sad and black I'm going insane the pain I feel for him cuts through me like a ing knife to a ing vein. Sometimes I think this horrible pain deep inside me is just a horrendous nightmare but then reality snaps back in and I realize I'm not asleep!!! I am completely ing lost going insane with no ing hope of ever being ing ing found!!!!!! I've been left for dead my heart he did rip ever ungentle out of my barely breathing ing chest my soul and spirit he did ing destroye OH, ING WELL!!! IT'S NOT LIKE ANYONE GIVES A . THERE IS A HORRIBLE UNBEARABLE PAIN IN MY CHEST WHERE MY HEART USE TO BE, BEFORE HE STOLE IT AND ripped IT OUT OF ME!!! BY: SHANTAE PAPPACOSTAS ORTEGA-ZELE (6-14-20)