My Lost Friend

Where have you been, where have you gone it is been a long time, as if it were yesterday time goes by but it is still today that feeling, that bond, it doesn't just go away time stays still and it is still today why did you have to go away? just when we were growing up finally learning what life and friends were all about hitting the streets and showing out, what we were all about that's when things ended, never saw you again people thought we were no longer friends not understanding what it means to go away cannot function without, also cannot dictate what this is all about for you see, my friend, when you went away most underestimated what that meant not just a loss, but a major life event one that is endless torment I know where you went, my best friend but the heart is always meant to mend but it won't, so this must be the end I cannot say goodbye, can't let you go heart won't let me, and who am I to be one, to even try for I want to cry, desire to cry want to be sad, that is my right want to be with you, think of you every night I hate to say the words dealing with death is too hard it has truly left me scarred Pop Pop, Grandma, Mom, and even you its an endless feeling of being blue being without you its tough to deal impossible to heal emotions still raw no one truly knows how I feel That's ok though, as my friend you'll see Someday, there's a place for me for all of us, be together again and that will be the end of the pain James R. Lutz Free verse, 7-21-2019