My Lost Friend

Where have you been, where have you gone
it is been a long time, as if it were yesterday
time goes by but it is still today
that feeling, that bond, it doesn't just go away
time stays still and it is still today

why did you have to go away?
just when we were growing up
finally learning what life and friends were all about 
hitting the streets and showing out, what we were all about
that's when things ended, never saw you again
people thought we were no longer friends
not understanding what it means to go away

cannot function without, also cannot dictate what this is all about
for you see, my friend, when you went away
most underestimated what that meant
not just a loss, but a major life event
one that is endless torment

I know where you went, my best friend
but the heart is always meant to mend
but it won't, so this must be the end

I cannot say goodbye, can't let you go
heart won't let me, and who am I
to be one, to even try
for I want to cry, desire to cry
want to be sad, that is my right
want to be with you, think of you every night

I hate to say the words
dealing with death is too hard
it has truly left me scarred

Pop Pop, Grandma, Mom, and even you
its an endless feeling of being blue
being without you

its tough to deal
impossible to heal
emotions still raw
no one truly knows how I feel

That's ok though, as my friend you'll see
Someday, there's a place for me
for all of us, be together again
and that will be the end of the pain

James R. Lutz
Free verse, 7-21-2019
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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La France Avatar
August 7, 2019 at 12:39 PM
James, well done, you expressed your loss very emotionally, I felt the pain and understand !
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July 30, 2019 at 5:28 AM
Welcome to Poetry Soup James. Any friend of Robert's is my friend. A heart-felt write; nicely done! Bravo!
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July 28, 2019 at 2:03 PM
Your raw feelings, James, did find their flow into so poetic and impressive a work! Your true feelings were shaped in depth into words that touch the heart of a reader to tears! I was both moved and captivated by the beauty and the pain felt into your poem! Keep the gates of your heart wide open and let your pen be dipped into the wonders of poetry.. I fave it.. my deepest regards and blessings. Welcome to Poetrysoup!
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July 27, 2019 at 1:02 PM
Welcome to Poetry Soup James! Mo
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July 26, 2019 at 12:39 PM
I had commented on Roberts as he had put your verse with his. I'm only new here myself but have learned so much from the info soup provides. A big welcome to poetry soup. Tom
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July 26, 2019 at 10:31 AM
Thanks, Robert. I look forward to the entire experience. I'm enjoying myself thus far in reading so many great poems! -Jim
Lindley Avatar
July 26, 2019 at 9:17 AM
And I am very glad to see you have posted this as your first poem and as your first poem here . I just added your first poem to my favorites list here. Pray you stay and continue your poetic journey here my friend. God bless.
Lindley Avatar
July 26, 2019 at 9:15 AM
I am truly delighted that you have joined this the best poetry site on the internet my friend. Write from the heart, do so fearlessly and a poet can never go wrong travelling down that path. This is an excellent place to learn and grow. It has so many very, very talented poet! After almost 50 years composing poetry I still learn from these poets everyday I read here. Got to go, run daily errands. later amigo.
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