My Letter To You

Dear Sarah the Sorceress Dear Sarah my Sorceress Dear Selena... I really need to talk to you I really need a word with you but one word isn't going to do it for me and all my words seem to be failing me As you can tell my head isn't right I have no clue what to say or do so I guess I'll just start by saying by saying...well I love you by saying...well I miss you Don't get me wrong I have no intentions of ruining your relationship I have no intentions of getting inbetween you and your love I have no intentions of taking your love away I just need to get something off my chest I am crazy I am crazy about you I was crazy for you I was crazy with you I guess I'm just crazy without you I guess I'm just crazy because of you Recently, I've been depressed What does that have to do with you well I'm always depressed once I speak to you well I'm always depressed once I think of you The kid in me the one that fell in love with you the one that kissed you May 22nd 2009 the one that fell apart moving away from you June 27th 2009 That was the start of my downfall just moving away from you I spent my entire freshman year of high school wishing to be with you wishing to hold you once more wishing to see you once more wishing to never see you again wishing to never hear your name again wishing to get over you for Dylan came in and stole you away once again for I couldn't handle I had you for a tiny moment and had nothing but poems to show for it for I couldn't handle losing my everything to some punk kid I didn't even know You are the main subject in most of the poems I have come to write It's a love/hate war inside my head for I feel you have led me on for I feel you have truly loved me as the years keep passing by but my timing has never been right so everytime I believed I could get you back so everytime I felt I could finally have you in my arms have you in my arms once again just hold you in my arms one more time to know you were real to know what we had was real to know what I felt when we were first together was completely true My chances were ripped from my hands and you cut me back down to size like recently... I fell apart once you said once you said you loved me like a brother I fell apart once I saw you were in love it caught me by surprise it caught me off guard I fell apart Don't get me wrong I have nothing against her I have no problem with her I have no issues with her I just can't stomach someone else having you The kid in me just doesn't want to grow up The kid in me just doesn't want to lose that one shred of happiness The kid in me... the kid in me is just me I can't bear to see my first everything become somebody elses something... What I have gotten myself into this time around... A deep depression four years of words never said for I was afraid you'd take my words and toss them out for I was afraid you'd take my words and bury them alive for I was afraid you'd take my words and just say you don't care So after four years I say this I love you maybe forever maybe just enough for today I love you I love you enough to get these words off my chest I love you enough to see you happy see you happy even if it's not because of me I love you enough to let go or at least attempt to So after four years I say I miss you I wish to hold you in my arms once more just to know my feelings were once real or is nothing more than a memory now but I'll let a mystery be a mystery and just let things be Sarah the Sorceress Sarah sweet Sorceress Sarah my Sorceress Selena... I love you Selena... this is my letter to you Selena... you don't have to respond Selena... I just hope you read this and understand I was someone with you I am who I am because of you All of this, all I am started with you Four years later you're still what's always on my mind no matter how hard I try to forget Selena...this is my letter to you Selena... Dear Selena... well I love you Our complicated love story Romeo and Juliet I guess it's over your call for now I take my bow and leave the stage but Sorceress, just know you're in my heart always