My Higher Self
I sense him watching with amusement
at my foolishness,
though I have need of him
else I would run amok.
Yet sometimes I resent him for his caution.
Let him play within his spirit world;
for mine, though just a fantasy
outranks his in its solidity.
I must admit it is the best
illusion I could ask;
for though I know that time
may only trickle out at my life's close--
the world is on a suicidal binge,
whiIe I may stay the game
if I remain within the present, cling
to it tenaciously; mine is not
the gloomy prophet's role. I am
the celebrant, the last remaining lover
quite as much adored and unrepenting,
thank you, as your bleeding Lord.
No,
I do not mock him as do those
with ears which will not hear
or hearts that will not bleed.
I mock your truth...and as I speak my own,
that too is just a hollow creed.
May I instead look up, enabled
(not at all enlightened by pure truth)
rather by desire to sense its fire within,
where words may never win the day..
~
Copyright © Robert Ludden | Year Posted 2012
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