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My Heart Stopped Beating

Laying her back on the wall of her prison Why was it different It hurt more Shocked more Chest heavy Grief affecting her This terrible ache consuming every pore Harder to swallow It was him she's sure She loons at me I know the look She's hiding behind the sofa Saying he's been back banging on the door I know it was the tumble dryer upstairs Her eyes are bloodshot A beautiful bright blue bloodshot Wide as fish eyes She's been pacing all night holding a knife She's holding an umbrella I took the knives last time she cut her wrists She's in torn clothes as she tears at her flesh I feel my flesh tear That's her last nice dress No longer nice but torn and red I give her trousers and a belt My own only just brought They drown her At least she's covered She says he's been calling her all night on the phone I took the phone when she smashed it on the wall I try to think of everything In the bathroom there's hair in the chipped shabby sink She's been pulling it out by the roots I feel my scalp it's sore, alien I feel everything I removed the scissors when she shredded her scalp cutting her hair off Saying this is why he had her Her long golden hair My hair Lithium pills In the cabinet, too many Too many pills She should of taken these She calms I calm Promising to take her pills, begging don't send me back to hell But at the secure unit she's safe I'm safe Says she'll have a bath and be better tomorrow She's settled, I'm settled So I leave I'll come back in the morning I sleep soundly First night in months The morning light gives me slight hope I can't remember this feeling much I hear a crash I run I'm taking too long Kicking the door in I thank God for kickboxing She's swinging from the oak beam in the ceiling My belt around her neck Juddering I look for a knife I look for scissors To cut her down Cut me down I look for a phone to call an ambulance I feel my body juddering My heart stop beating The belt The new belt I hadn't thought about the belt

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Date: 11/25/2014 4:16:00 PM
That was exceedingly intense. *rereading* ...wow... this is a very powerful piece. "Her eyes are bloodshot A beautiful bright blue bloodshot Wide as fish eyes" Those lines are so very vivid in my mind. Excellent piece!!! Always, Laura
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Date: 11/25/2014 4:24:00 PM
Thank you so much for the comment I'm taking your time reading it .
Date: 11/25/2014 3:41:00 PM
very powerful indeed, my friend - so glad to see this was poem of the day
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Date: 9/22/2014 5:39:00 AM
The belt... neither did I!!
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Date: 9/21/2014 11:55:00 PM
Many many congrats.. A wonderful write indeed.
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Date: 9/22/2014 5:15:00 AM
Thanks
Date: 9/21/2014 4:37:00 PM
WOW! You did so well now you are going to have to change your name.
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Date: 9/21/2014 12:01:00 PM
- Congrats : "Poem of the Day" !!!!! // Anne-Lise :)
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Date: 9/21/2014 12:07:00 PM
Cheers lovey. X
Date: 9/21/2014 9:54:00 AM
incredibly powerful write I can see why its poem of the day:-) Hugs Jan - its a 7 from me too:-)
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JAN ALLISON
Date: 9/21/2014 10:18:00 AM
Oh LKN you are too kind! I still have so much to learn but am growing is skill and confidence every day :-) Hugs Jan xx
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Date: 9/21/2014 10:17:00 AM
Thanks it's lovely that you thought it was worth commenting on seeing as your such an extraordinary poet yourself. Xx l.k.n
Date: 9/21/2014 8:36:00 AM
outstanding piece of writing excellent pen
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Date: 9/21/2014 10:14:00 AM
Thank you loads
Date: 9/21/2014 6:48:00 AM
Congratulations on being poem of the day. This is a well deserved win for you.
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Date: 9/21/2014 10:13:00 AM
Thank you Maurice. I do believe you helped get me here. Oxo L.k.n
Date: 9/21/2014 5:01:00 AM
Congrats on being the feature poem of the day....hugs Tim
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Date: 9/21/2014 6:18:00 AM
Cheer mate. Oo.xxx. L.k.n.
Date: 9/21/2014 1:52:00 AM
I enjoyed this a lot... You have defined the theme very well. In awe, it took me by surprise. Do you mind if I rate it a 7? Sending a smile, Verlena.
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Date: 9/21/2014 6:19:00 AM
Wow a 7 wicked thank you for taking the time to read my poem. And a 7 is really welcome. O.x.o L.k.n
Date: 9/20/2014 4:46:00 PM
Very well done piece...I love the dialog within the lines..hugs Tim
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Date: 9/20/2014 5:24:00 PM
I was messing around with Maurice...lol
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Date: 9/20/2014 4:56:00 PM
Thank you for that. Means a lot taking time to comment, l.k.n
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Date: 9/20/2014 4:56:00 PM
Help you ???
Date: 9/20/2014 1:47:00 PM
You can always ask me for any help you need with anything on here.
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Maurice Yvonne
Date: 9/20/2014 5:30:00 PM
Sure but aren't you the want who helped me. Circles everything is circles.
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Tim Smith
Date: 9/20/2014 4:42:00 PM
Can you help me ?
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Date: 9/20/2014 1:48:00 PM
Thanks for the advice I'll defiantly look at theirs this eve. L.k.n x
Date: 9/20/2014 1:46:00 PM
Its my pleasure. I will add you to my fav poet and make sure I comment on as much of your work as I can. If you look at any of my writes you will find Casarah, Tim and Jan. All three of them will comment on yours when you comment on theirs. If you check the poem of the week it is my piece about the three of them and me. I ended up getting a lot of favs on it because it was just fun. That is why I faved yours. The more favs your poem gets the more exposure you get. Also the comments help.
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Date: 9/20/2014 1:35:00 PM
I rated it a seven and I will fav it.
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Date: 9/20/2014 1:36:00 PM
Thank you for reading it really means a lot to me
Date: 9/20/2014 1:34:00 PM
WOW!!!! You floored me. I didn't see it coming. This is brilliant in so many ways. I love it.
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