My heart locked into the past

I'm tired The past locked into my future Locked into my now I am so mad Feeling the grief How many years to go Blindly Tightly to what should have been Now im old with no where to go The past stole my future or did I give it all a way To a past that never was Remnants of the past In my face Hating me Because The past locked into my heart My heart is ripping free The rip will surely do me in I'm tired so I guess its really a relief The past is gone so what the is it Delusional insane too long