My Heart Is Still

My heart stands still as I think of you Allowing a deepen smile To began pierring my present mood I feel a joy swell within As tho a baby bird that just Sought wings I feel as tho a drop of moistureing rain Has fallen upon my skin Nurturing it's life A feeding felt deep within I see a smile One only I know But yet its' meaning I may never know What should I think In this moment of now A mixture of thoughts Run free in my mind Should I love you still In my world of now As I did in those days of old For I do not know now What's best for me Nor do I know How to set my heart free When my mind is left To wonder And silence becomes A living thing When feelings Are being tossed As tho a feather in the wind Is the time drawing near For my heart to close the door To all the things I thought one day would be unexplored desires many untraveled miles the unlived emotions These feelings now that lay so protected Within me If by chance it is not for me to know What was the meaning What was lefted untold Maybe one day I will wonder no more If the time comes That my heart has silently Closed its' door