My Heart Held a Funeral

My heart held a funeral today
The love I had for you in decay...
I enshrouded myself in black
While sobs my weak body wrack
My face swathed in filmy lace
So others the tears could not trace
The requiem played in my mind
No solace could I find
By the casket, I sat still
Forcing myself at will
To accept my tragic loss
I look at the golden cross
On the box in which lies entombed
That which my hidden feelings exhumed
The idolatrous image of you
All I held noble and true
That which I had adored
Which in my heart I had stored
I had to bid farewell
Whether to heaven or to hell
Your image would take flight
To bright day or morbid night
The funeral must come to an end
My heart in need of a chance to mend

But, you...you are not dead
It's only true in my head
You are still alive
And oh, how you thrive…
Breathing and moving
Speaking and wooing
Teasing and dreaming
Smiling and scheming
Alive...deliriously alive
And oh, how I must strive
For you're close, still bright
You fill my eyes with delight
Such a sight to behold
A heart I thought was pure gold
But your soul….
Ah…your soul
For me has died
And I mourn and I weep
As this secret I keep
I beat my chest and wail
All to no avail

I thought you were fine	
Exquisitely divine…
But what could I do?
A fault was found in you
One that I could not ignore
And so I frantically tore
My garments in lament
I had thought you...heaven sent

Today I attended a funeral
And I know recovery will be long
The secrets in that coffin belong
I rise to leave the funeral hall
Where from the pedestal you did fall
Still weeping…weeping
My wounded heart keeping
The tale of the great demise
Of your image in my love struck eyes

Eileen Manassian Ghali
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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J.T. Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 10:09 PM
The pain, passion, sadness all embodied in this poem. You're a poetess in true form
Manassian Avatar
July 17, 2013 at 6:15 AM
You are very generous with your praise. I do thank you. :)
Seal Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 5:24 PM
Fantastic write Eileen, you have written a brilliant poem in this, much clapping, Take care, Richard
Manassian Avatar
July 18, 2013 at 1:07 AM
Sometimes....I really wonder, Richard...Deserve...who deserve any good thing in life? That it comes is just a bonus! Ok...that was flif flaf...ya...I DESERVE IT. Better not forget that important fact. Your memory seems to be slipping at times! ;)
Seal Avatar
July 17, 2013 at 5:27 PM
Do you deserve anything less
Manassian Avatar
July 17, 2013 at 6:16 AM
I can hear it all the way over here, Richard. Thank you! Was that a standing ovation? :)
Manassian Avatar
July 17, 2013 at 6:16 AM
Richard......be good!
Lamoureux Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 5:05 PM
Check out poet" Natasha Lived" it appears Freddie is back with a new name.
Manassian Avatar
July 18, 2013 at 1:07 AM
I read up....yes....
Manassian Avatar
July 17, 2013 at 6:17 AM
I did, Richard....but it doesn't feel quite the same. I mean...content, yes, but....I'm not sure!
Eastman Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 4:51 PM
Sad but brilliantly developed.
Manassian Avatar
July 17, 2013 at 6:17 AM
Carol, so happy to have a visit from you. :)
Devnath  Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 1:24 PM
It's a very sad poem, no hope is left. Wonderfully penned. Loved always, bl
Manassian Avatar
July 17, 2013 at 6:18 AM
Well...while there is life, there is hope. :) Thanks for the visit.
Jones Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 11:08 AM
Yes...it is a most powerful poem sweet Eileen..and the hurt like one of my poems says...words bruise deeper than any stone...makes us stronger but kindest hearts like yours get broken often...
Manassian Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 11:12 AM
Oh my darling MD....how sweet you are to me! How kind! I so love hearing from you.....HUGS HUGS HUGS! My little heart will bounce back. It always does one way or another....
Jones Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 11:09 AM
HUG.....
Merryman Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 10:47 AM
A powerful, emotional write, Eileen! Love, Kim
Manassian Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 10:55 AM
Thank you, Kim...Always a pleasure to see you here! Hugs!
Chircop Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 8:23 AM
Its very sad when we have to let go of someome we have thougjt the world of..when we find that we were holding on to something which wasn t there..The real death must be easier cause the soul will survive ..but the kind of death mentioned here is much worse.Do i get the msg?sad and powerful..heartbreaking too
Manassian Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 10:56 AM
Yes, you most certainly did, my dear. Most certainly....Hope all is well with you, cutie pie! Hugs!
Nair Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 8:17 AM
such power-packed words to bring out the intense emotions, it makes for a nice read, Eileen!!
Manassian Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 10:57 AM
Power-packed! I do like that description, jag! Thanks for stopping by! :)
Tacito Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 8:06 AM
A powerful capturing of sadness' moment. Especially when secrets are taken to the grave. Excellent job!!!
Manassian Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 10:54 AM
Hey you....glad for the visit. Next time around going to offer you some of my to die for apple pie...or brownies...or chocolate chip cookies....or carrot cake...or cinnamon rolls. Take your pick! ;) Go on...get the contest over with...I'm dying here!
Lamoureux Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 7:59 AM
Best not to place on pedestals no one can maintain the lofty position. Also there is not much room up there and invariably the person will fall. Very well written and emotive piece Eileen.
Manassian Avatar
July 16, 2013 at 10:52 AM
Good advice, Richard....I never learn. Unfortunately, I'm a hopeless idealist. When I care for someone, and they don't live up to my expectations, it devastates me. I never learn. While there is life, there is hope. Those I care about closely and who I am comfortable with, I let them know when I'm disappointed in them. I know I disappoint as well, so....goes both ways! Thanks for the advice.
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