My Guardian Angel Has Fallen

Cursed are my prayers. I seek healing only to be more wounded, I seek clarity only to be more blinded. Tell me guardian, do you twist my words to God? What do you say when you petition for me? Or now you only talk to the other side? Have you fallen? Do I mutter that you don’t heed my words? Did I wrong you in any way? People often preach ‘’patience’’ but how long is long enough? When will I be heard ? do you even want me to be heard? Or you supress my voice not to go up? How have I triggered such wickedness in you? Am I that bad? Worst to guard? Is it my foolish humanly decisions that have shutted you out from me? Your silence is gruesome, are you even here? Have you become a demon? Have you lost your soul too? Are you no longer for me? You should hinder me from tripping, but you’re the one setting traps for me. I am sorry for my mistakes. Please be for me again. Come back from the other side