My Fear To Live Lonely For Ever

Sitting there on the bench of loneliness
Watching the falling stars all alone
Feeling the wind touching me all alone,
Feeling my lonely tears crawling all alone.

Sitting there watching the people
Smiling, laughing, and talking
Together

Sitting there with my eyes closed 
Contemplating me,
Laughing and talking
To a friend happily.

I feel that something inside my heart 
Is killing me
With no mercy,
I feel that something inside me is blasting harmfully
I feel the darkness enveloping me from all the sides
I feel the loneliness controlling me 
All over and over again 

I thought of the eyes of sadness I have,
I thought of me living this life for ever.

I don’t want the loneliness to haunt me till my end, 
I don’t want it to live within me, 
In my grave 

I want to live normally. Happily.
I tried to smile once to the world 
But I failed 
I tried to defeat the pain in me 
But the pain was more powerful than I thought.

It defeated me by letting me 
Cry constantly, 
By the tears that crawled 
On my lifeless cheeks.

Im dying from inside
But hardly living from outside.

I need a loving, caring person
I need someone to talk to 
To tell him the pain am suffering from 

I don’t want the pain to spread 
All over me again 
I don’t want to keep suffering for ever 

My only wish is to live a happy normal life,
Like the other people around me …
Copyright © | Year Posted 2007

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