My Family Lost

an angry father with no love no acceptance there even a hug a detached mother never a smile ive seen her happy but its been awhile a drugged out sister who raised me right finds release with blade of a knife my dear brother scarred for life sorrowful crying fills the night my family means the world and more but loving me is their biggest chore not a pleasure not a privilege my heart soars but then they kill it not all is bad at times they fake it but false smiles cant always make it a beaten child here i lay waiting for the darkness of day mother tries but cant hold on sister only hits the bong brother distant in great need father reason i sometimes bleed they are all i have they are my nothing hoping, groping to find something i hold them dear i love them so better to fight than let go divorce ending what had been some chose faith and others sin my brother chose nothing though i try to be an anchor in a sea of night still he drifts away so far away living life one bad day to bad day sister to high to hear my cries pushing back the harder i try i want her to see the light i wont give up without a fight father once so happy and energetic now drained and sees me as pathetic was so loving and full of life now gets drunk and wants a fight mother lost as i try to lead the way back still slipping so far off track i cant stand to see her cry though it happens every night i love my family they are all i ever had and ill stand by them in good and bad i love you family please come home im so sick of being alone i need you now more than ever i need someone to make it better i need a smile instead of shouts i need words from the heart not the mouth please family find me here please leave behind the beer leave the drugs and the knife leave the darkness in the night leave your new world ill make this one better i said it once and ill say it forever my world is lost without the center family you are the core everything that i adore ill make every effort i want it back the happiness of our long lost past