My Eternal Torment

What is wrong within my head? Words are coming, nothing's said. Empty gaze in front of me, a shock into reality. A war's occurring in my mind, I clearly see, but then go blind. My thoughts are clouded, then are seen, Knowledge that I cannot glean. There is no help, there is no Hope, ever growing in its scope. What is waiting to break free, imprisoned for eternity? My Rage and Hate and Joy and Love, Destroying that for which I strove. Unfeeling creature I've become, instead of suicidal, numb. Depression rules instead of Rage, I'm an Emotion Autophage. God-hating wretch that I've become, I use my Wall to keep me numb. I've killed my Love to stop the Pain, It leaves a burning, blackened stain. Memories of them Haunt me still, Departed souls who always will. Escape is Hopeless, but Embrace will Derange, A Soulless One Who Will Never Change.