My Dying Wish

Walkin around head down
Praying I'll soon be casket bed bound
Whether it's from a gun when it spreads rounds
Or catch a disease that causes me to shed
pounds
And I pass away alone no tear drop sounds
Come to my funeral if you knew me I predict I
vacant crowd
Satin welcomes me with open arms son your
finally found
Maybe my death comes from self infliction
Take the rope put it around my throat hang myself my
own lynchin
If I had 5 horses I'd use the rope and tie it my
body every segment
Have all run in different directions to separate
every ligament
The inhuman intense images
Is inconceivable to the human senses
The pain is relentless
Starts at the head makes it goes through your
legs then shoots back to shatter your appendix
It's the reason I invoke my final breath comes
soon
Especially if I'm forever foredoomed
Every where I go misfortune looms
Hope is striped
Compare my life to my penmanship
Sloppy hard to read and find it far-fetched
anyone would wanna claim ownership
So why would I subsist
Put in a sub I quit
So if I die at this moment remember this
I'm sorry to the ones I threw stones at and forgive
the ones who threw bricks
Mama I was suppose to be a success but destiny
didn't like the script
Grandpa sorry I'm not strong enough to fight
through the hardships
I started as a soldier and became a seasoned vet
And after all these battles all was left
Gruesome images I can't seem to forget
And a perpetuating battle with the devils green
beret
Brings depression and ignite rage
No assistance from god to have the demons
slayed
Till tick tick tick then explode like the pellet I pray
to catch that's stray
Unspoken obstacles
As I decide to self loathe
And let ill fortune rot in my soul
Make no sense to be a living being
I get discredited for carry boulders that makes
me Herculean
Eyes closed in a black hearse as I exit oblivion
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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October 5, 2010 at 9:26 AM
Congrats on the feature. I was lucky. 30 years and never saw action. My brother wasn't. Diabled in Nam. Vince
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October 5, 2010 at 6:53 AM
There arent the words enough in the world, to speak what I need to say...If you ever need someone to talk to, Im an open listener...That dark place your poem speaks of, is a very familliar place... Always~Jessica
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October 4, 2010 at 9:49 AM
Congratulations on your poetry being featured this week at PoetrySoup A M. Love, Carol
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October 4, 2010 at 4:59 AM
profound write congrates on being featured this week and thank you for sharing love Jayne
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September 16, 2010 at 10:25 AM
Enjoyed reading your poetry today A M. Hope you have a wonderful day. Love, Carol
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September 15, 2010 at 3:29 PM
i like your style, keep them comin
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September 15, 2010 at 2:12 PM
Wow Cool poem a m. keep in flowing I need more. Welcome to the soup
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