My Dying Wish

Walkin around head down Praying I'll soon be casket bed bound Whether it's from a gun when it spreads rounds Or catch a disease that causes me to shed pounds And I pass away alone no tear drop sounds Come to my funeral if you knew me I predict I vacant crowd Satin welcomes me with open arms son your finally found Maybe my death comes from self infliction Take the rope put it around my throat hang myself my own lynchin If I had 5 horses I'd use the rope and tie it my body every segment Have all run in different directions to separate every ligament The inhuman intense images Is inconceivable to the human senses The pain is relentless Starts at the head makes it goes through your legs then shoots back to shatter your appendix It's the reason I invoke my final breath comes soon Especially if I'm forever foredoomed Every where I go misfortune looms Hope is striped Compare my life to my penmanship Sloppy hard to read and find it far-fetched anyone would wanna claim ownership So why would I subsist Put in a sub I quit So if I die at this moment remember this I'm sorry to the ones I threw stones at and forgive the ones who threw bricks Mama I was suppose to be a success but destiny didn't like the script Grandpa sorry I'm not strong enough to fight through the hardships I started as a soldier and became a seasoned vet And after all these battles all was left Gruesome images I can't seem to forget And a perpetuating battle with the devils green beret Brings depression and ignite rage No assistance from god to have the demons slayed Till tick tick tick then explode like the pellet I pray to catch that's stray Unspoken obstacles As I decide to self loathe And let ill fortune rot in my soul Make no sense to be a living being I get discredited for carry boulders that makes me Herculean Eyes closed in a black hearse as I exit oblivion