My Darling Contradiction

You bend and fold my paper thin self control Creating an airplane of inevitable destruction You let it cruise into the air without a care in the world The only bad thing that’ll happen in this life is the day we find out we’re about to die I’ll ask myself if I lived up to my potential If I conquered an inner demon or two If I found a reason to be happy in the midst of chaos And if I could say I loved somebody with my whole heart If I answer yes, then and only then will I die in peace The only thing that’ll ruin this is you You have the power to derail my life You could be that fiend that always escapes my grasp You could you could be the creator of my insanity You could manipulate me into loving you, even though all the while I was lusting you You hypnotize my rationality, tossing it to the wind with reckless abandon Yet when I close my eyes all I see is you You erase all your faults and imperfections with the flash of your irresistible smile You caress my irritated mind with your delicate touch You have me wrapped around your every finger and you hold me in your hands Hostage, begging for more