My Darkest Day

I have always loved you daddy and I always will Even though its been 2 years I feel it stinging still I miss your touch, your laugh, your hug But what I miss the most of all is the warmth of your love It is all the little things, that I miss the most Like how you always smelled like grease, and that slight diesel note All the happiness and all the joy came to a sudden stop When that morning I was given news that your condition had horribly dropped My heart sank and I began to cry we all knew it was the end I wasn’t sure on where to turn I was going to lose a friend He was my friend, my teacher, my father of course And he was the root of all my knowledge; it was him that was the source But he was so much more than that to me he was superman So how could something like this happen through anything he could stand All the things he taught me and all the things I knew Could not prepare me even a bit for what we had to do We made the decision to set you free to take away the pain The doctors said you wouldn’t make it not even another day So as I stood there and held your hand and told you it was ok I knew that deep inside my heart I wanted you to stay I grasped your hand and held you close and whispered in your ear “I love you dad and I always will I’ll take care of things down here” “Just let go I’ll take care of mom myself and even Bryan too” I do believe this was the hardest thing I had to do As you turned to look at me I knew what you would say “I love you son and I always will and I’m proud of you this day” Then you took your final breath and shed a single tear Crying, and sobbing, and screams of why are all that I could hear That was it and he was gone, I will never forget that day I cant stop thinking about how I love him and wished he could’ve stayed I wish he were here to see me grow up, and to hold his first grandchild But most of all I wish he were here so I could see his smile But I don’t give up and I stay strong because I know he is proud of me And he’s no longer sick or in pain cause now he is set free No more pain no more fear he is in a better place But that doesn’t make me wish any less that I could still see his face But now every morning when look in the mirror do you know what it is I see? I see my father and that’s because his legacy lives through me