My Confusion

I can't understand this life. Everything that I hear sounds like a lie. I've lost many friends to hate and pain  And from rage inside me that makes me feel as if I'm going insane.   My thoughts won't turn away from the things that make me feel this way.  As hard as I try I just cant make you listen Because my voice is strained and i can't get your attention.   I can't remember when it all come undone. For I'm lost in my mind waiting for the sun.