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My Brother's Love and Addiction To His Demon

MY BROTHER
YES YOUR SOUL IS LOST
YOUR LIFE IS DEDICATED TO COCAINE 
SAD FOR US TO SEE YOUR LIFE HAS BEEN WASTED
LOOK AT YOU
YOU WHERE LEFT FOR DEAD SOAKING IN YOUR OWN POOL OF BLOOD
THEY LEFT YOU TO DIE THAT NIGHT
GOD DID'NT TAKE YOU THAN
BUT THEY SCARED YOU FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE
PARALIZED
THREE QUARTERS OF ONE LUNG
TWENTY FOUR STAB WOUNDS
AND YOU STILL DON'T SEE THE LIGHT
YOUR DETERMINATION FOR YOU CONTINUE WITH YOUR ADDICTION WILL 
NEVER END
WE HAVE ALL TRIED
BUT I CONTIONOUSLY TRIED TO UNDERSTAND YOU AND TO HELP YOU 
FIGHT IT
TO THINK I'M THE YOUNGEST TO HAVE TO BE THE BRAVEST AND THE 
STRONGEST
YOU'VE PROVED TO US YOU'LL NEVER QUIT
BUT I REFUSE TO BURRY YOU OVER A CRACK PIPE
I REFUSE TO FEEL SORRY FOR YOU
YOUR LIFE HAD BEEN TAKEN AND IT WAS'NT
YOU'LL NEVER SEE
YOU HAVE SO MUCH TALENT
BUT NOT THE STRENGTH TO FIGHT THIS
I ACCEPTED YOU FOR ALL THE THINGS YOU'VE DONE
FOR ALL THE THINGS YOU HAVE TAKEN FROM ME AND YOUR FAMILY
SICKENING
AT ONE POINT I LOOKED UP TO YOU UNTIL I WAS OLD ENOUGH TO 
UNDERSTAND FULLY WHAT YOUR LIFE REALLY WAS
ARE'NT YOU TIRED OF NOT KNOWING THE DAY
ALWAYS IN AND OUT OF JAIL WHICH YOU CALL YOUR HOME
I UNDERSTAND WHEN YOU ARE INSIDE AND LOCKDOWN YOU FEEL 
SECURE AND FREE 
EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE PHYSICALLY NOT
LOOKIN AT YOUR PICTURES WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG IS HARD TO BELIEVE 
THAT WAS YOU
YOU ALWAYS TELL ME I'M JUST LIKE MOM
I'M HATING TO SEE THE DAY SHE HAS TO BURRY YOU TO THIS ADDICTION
TIME WILL COME AND YOUR WISH WILL BE ANSWERED AND YOUR WAY OUT 
WILL BE
JUST THE WAY YOU WANTED IT TO BE
THAT'S SOUNDS SO BAD WHEN I SAY THAT
YOU CAN ONLY HELP YOURSELF AND KICK IT BUT YOU'VE BEEN IN IT FOR 
OVER THIRTY YEARS
I'M DISSAPOINTED
AT THE SAME TIME YOU CONTINUE TO FEED YOUR DEMON 
WE ALL STILL LOVE YOU AND ACCEPT YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE
THAT'S SAD BUT YOU STILL ARE HUMAN 
BLOOD RUNS IN YOUR VEINS SAME WAY AS IT DOES MINE
YOURS ARE POISONED BY SELF INFLICTION
WE CAN NO LONGER SAVE YOU ONLY YOU CAN SAVE YOURSELF
HOW MUCH TIME DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE LEFT
I MEAN HOW FAR DOES THREE QUARTERS OF ONE LUNG GIVE YOU IN THIS 
LIFE
MY BROTHER IT'S JUST A MATTER OF YOU DEFEATING THE CLOCK OF 
YOUR  DAYS
YOU'VE HAD TWO CHANCES OF LIFE
YOU HAVE ONE LEFT AND YOU ARE DEFEATING YOURSELF AND I'M 
DIGUSTED
BUT YOU ARE MY BLOOD
FAMILY DOES'NT TURN THEIR BACKS ON THE ONES THEY LOVE
BOTTOM LINE
IT'S SUCH A SHAME

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