My Brother's Love and Addiction To His Demon

MY BROTHER YES YOUR SOUL IS LOST YOUR LIFE IS DEDICATED TO COCAINE SAD FOR US TO SEE YOUR LIFE HAS BEEN WASTED LOOK AT YOU YOU WHERE LEFT FOR DEAD SOAKING IN YOUR OWN POOL OF BLOOD THEY LEFT YOU TO DIE THAT NIGHT GOD DID'NT TAKE YOU THAN BUT THEY SCARED YOU FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE PARALIZED THREE QUARTERS OF ONE LUNG TWENTY FOUR STAB WOUNDS AND YOU STILL DON'T SEE THE LIGHT YOUR DETERMINATION FOR YOU CONTINUE WITH YOUR ADDICTION WILL NEVER END WE HAVE ALL TRIED BUT I CONTIONOUSLY TRIED TO UNDERSTAND YOU AND TO HELP YOU FIGHT IT TO THINK I'M THE YOUNGEST TO HAVE TO BE THE BRAVEST AND THE STRONGEST YOU'VE PROVED TO US YOU'LL NEVER QUIT BUT I REFUSE TO BURRY YOU OVER A CRACK PIPE I REFUSE TO FEEL SORRY FOR YOU YOUR LIFE HAD BEEN TAKEN AND IT WAS'NT YOU'LL NEVER SEE YOU HAVE SO MUCH TALENT BUT NOT THE STRENGTH TO FIGHT THIS I ACCEPTED YOU FOR ALL THE THINGS YOU'VE DONE FOR ALL THE THINGS YOU HAVE TAKEN FROM ME AND YOUR FAMILY SICKENING AT ONE POINT I LOOKED UP TO YOU UNTIL I WAS OLD ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND FULLY WHAT YOUR LIFE REALLY WAS ARE'NT YOU TIRED OF NOT KNOWING THE DAY ALWAYS IN AND OUT OF JAIL WHICH YOU CALL YOUR HOME I UNDERSTAND WHEN YOU ARE INSIDE AND LOCKDOWN YOU FEEL SECURE AND FREE EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE PHYSICALLY NOT LOOKIN AT YOUR PICTURES WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG IS HARD TO BELIEVE THAT WAS YOU YOU ALWAYS TELL ME I'M JUST LIKE MOM I'M HATING TO SEE THE DAY SHE HAS TO BURRY YOU TO THIS ADDICTION TIME WILL COME AND YOUR WISH WILL BE ANSWERED AND YOUR WAY OUT WILL BE JUST THE WAY YOU WANTED IT TO BE THAT'S SOUNDS SO BAD WHEN I SAY THAT YOU CAN ONLY HELP YOURSELF AND KICK IT BUT YOU'VE BEEN IN IT FOR OVER THIRTY YEARS I'M DISSAPOINTED AT THE SAME TIME YOU CONTINUE TO FEED YOUR DEMON WE ALL STILL LOVE YOU AND ACCEPT YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE THAT'S SAD BUT YOU STILL ARE HUMAN BLOOD RUNS IN YOUR VEINS SAME WAY AS IT DOES MINE YOURS ARE POISONED BY SELF INFLICTION WE CAN NO LONGER SAVE YOU ONLY YOU CAN SAVE YOURSELF HOW MUCH TIME DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE LEFT I MEAN HOW FAR DOES THREE QUARTERS OF ONE LUNG GIVE YOU IN THIS LIFE MY BROTHER IT'S JUST A MATTER OF YOU DEFEATING THE CLOCK OF YOUR DAYS YOU'VE HAD TWO CHANCES OF LIFE YOU HAVE ONE LEFT AND YOU ARE DEFEATING YOURSELF AND I'M DIGUSTED BUT YOU ARE MY BLOOD FAMILY DOES'NT TURN THEIR BACKS ON THE ONES THEY LOVE BOTTOM LINE IT'S SUCH A SHAME