My Betelgeuse Supernova- Pyg's Whisper X Rose Bleue

I was a kid when I looked up at the sky I was a kid when I pointed my finger at that star I was a kid when I made that solemn vow that night I was just a little kid with a big dream A small body with a huge energy I was innocent but my eyes were a mystery All that was flashing through my mind was success I was feeling a twinge of envy for those TV superstars I was praying god help me confess Until that day when courage filled my heart And my lips finally whispered my plan Mama, I do remember that look in your eyes, That surge of anxiety you felt, That lack of confidence you had in me, Those questions written on your face, Would I be able to survive? Would I make it alive? Papa, I still think about what you wanted me to be, An open-minded child with a brighter destiny, You were standing still like a silent hill, It smashed my hope but it didn't tear my faith apart I was running through blurry woods Looking for the right door To take me where I thought I belong, Yes I made it that time Mother father, drew that smile but it was obviously fake I wasn't ready to quit I was fully aware, it was my journey, I swore that I would be the pride of my family I ignored my adventuring youth and work hard for the glory I endured the pain and aches in order to write my story After everything I’ve done, here I am, Felt like my fingertips are barely touching my childhood star But visibly, it ain’t my Betelgeuse supernova I’m swimming in an ocean of doubts Still wondering if this is really what I chose Day by day I keep questioning myself Did I make a mistake? Those people who have been walking just half of my path Are already holding their shooting stars Shining like a diamond Just tell me who's to blame? Give me just one answer, why I’m stuck here going nowhere? I’ve got a million queries choking me I tried to run away but they keep following me As soon as I blink my eyelids, I see my dreams fly away Every day they price my talent but still underrated You say it's not my fault so tell me why I can't keep moving on? My future is covered by those heavy clouds So what could happen if I lost myself in the middle of this road? What if I fall down and live like a forgotten shadow? I’m completely lost but I’m not strong enough to start over Maybe I should come through this until my life's nightmare wind up Would I be able to see the light at the end of this show? Or maybe die midway with an extensive regret?