Mrs. Yolanda Joy Nicholsen Poet Naat

MY AMERICAN FAMILY SURVIVING MY WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI

SEARCHING FOR A BETTER LIFE AFTER THE FBI RELOCATED MY FAMILY TO CLEVELAND THINGS WERE LOOKING UP AT LEAST WE WERE AWAY FROM THE DEALERS AND KILLERS I FINALLY DELIVERED MY BABY GIRL SHE WAS VERY ILL NY ABUSIVE HUSBAND BEGAN TO TORTURE ME HE WAS FULL BLOWN JUNK SICK I WAS IN CONTACT WITH SPECIAL AGENT PAULA BRAND SIGNING FOR THE BUREAU SPECIAL AGENT LEROY HEIMBACH SENT CLOTHING BABY ITEMS I FEARED MY SAFETY I DID NOT QUITE UNDERSTAND HOW TO MOVE FORWARD THE BEATINGS HE RAN OFF WITH MONIES FOR FOOD DIAPERS PRAYER CARDS I KELP SILENT I FIGURED IT WOULD PASS I WAS AN EMOTIONAL WRECK MY EMOTIONS WEREN'T IMPORTANT ONLY MY KIDS AND KEEPING HIM CALM ENOUGH NOT TO GET ANGRY HITTING ME WITH GLASS BABY BOTTLE AS I WAS BREAST FEEDING MY NEWBORN MY HAIR SCALP BLOOD MILK STUCK TO THE WALL HE THREW HOT A POT OF HOT COFFEE ON MY BELLY FROM A PERCULATOR MY OLDEST DAUGHTER HELPED PICK THE GRINDS OUT OF MY BLISTERS WE WERE THE AMERICAN FAMILY I WORKED THREE JOBS WHILE HE ABUSED ME I DIDN'T SEE THE FUTURE WHEN IT ARRIVED MY KIDS WERE GROWING UP THE KIDS THAT ROAD ALONG WITH THE AGENTS WHILE I WORE WIRES PREGNANT GOING INTO DRUG HOUSES HOSTAGE SITUATIONS I NEVER KNEW HOW THIS WAS AFFECTING MY KIDS UNTIL MY OLDEST DAUGHTER BEGAN RUNNING AWAY CLIMBED OUT THE WINDOW TO BE WITH HER OWN DRUG DEALING BOYFRIEND IN CLEVELAND I WAS NOW PREGNANT WITH NO. 7 ON HEALTHY START MAGAZINE FOX NEWS 8 I WALKED IN THE SNOW TO FIND HER ME AND RETIRED SHERIFF CHARLES WILLIAMS I WAS DEVESTATED HE'D ALWAYS FIND HER NOT THIS TIME HER DRUG DEALER BOYFRIEND SUPPLYING HER WITH DRUGS SHE SURFACED A WEEK LATER PREGNANT WITH MY GRANDDAUGHTER WITH HER OWN HABITS JUST WEED I THOUGHT OF HER DAD BEING JUNK SICK ALL WHILE I WORKED FOR THE FBI THE COPS WOULD TAKE HIM AROUND THE CORNER TO COOL OFF AFTER BEATING ME AND GIVE HIM COCAINE TO SMOKE AND WEED I WAS ALONE IN RAISING THEM HIS ABUSE WAS HORRIFYING I HAD NO CHOICE BUT FLEE BACK TO CLEVELAND AFTER SEVERAL ASSAULTS IN MILWAUKEE I KNEW HE WOULD KILL ME SO NOW WHAT I HAD JUST RENTED A WASHER AND DRYER SPECIAL AGENT HEIMBACH WAS MY REFERENCE JUST IN CASE I WAS CAPTURED MURDERED WINTER SETTLED IN MY GIRL CONTINUED THIS RELATIONSHIP WITH HER DRUG DEALER GUY UNTIL HER WAS ARRESTED ON MURDER CHARGES I FLED TO FORT MYERS FLORIDA TO START A NEW LIFE A NEW CLEANING SERVICE A SAFE WARM PLACE TO BRING MY GRANDCHILD IN THE WORLD IT WASN'T LONG AFTER HER BIRTH THREATS FROM CIRO GARGANO MY ABUSIVE EX LOCATED US TOO SO I CONTACTED LEROY HEIMBACH MOVED BACK SENDING MY DAUGHTER FIRST ON GREYHOUND WITH MY GRANDDAUGHTER WASN'T LONG I BEGAN WEARING WIRES AGAIN FOR THE FBI  PREGNANT WITH NO. 8 MEANWHILE MY DAUGHTER FOUND A NEW DRUG DEALER THIS TIME WITH MY GRANDDAUGHTER SHE MOVED IN WITH HIM HER FATHER JUNK SICK THREATENING TO FIND ME AND KILL ME IT WAS A BLESSINGS RECIEVING ORDERS FOR A NEW JOB AT MACDILL I TOOK MY YOUNGER KIDS TO A SAFE PLACE AND QUICKLY TRANSFERRED TO THE SPRINGS OF TAMPA MY DAUGHTER AND MY GRANDDAUGHTER STAYED WITH HER DRUG DEALER BOYFRIEND FEARING FOR MY SAFETY THE SAFETY OF MY AMERICAN FAMILY I STARTED MY NEW JOB DIVORCE MY ABUSIVE EX GAVE BIRTH REMARRIED MY DAUGHTER REFUSED TO JOIN US AT FIRST UNTIL HER DRUG DEALER BOYFRIEND WAS UNDER THE RADAR THANK GOD WHEN SHE ARRIVED I WAS WORKING IT WASN'T LONG SHE FOUND NEW DRUG DEALERS WHO BEFRIENDED HER A WEIRD FAMILY OF DRAG QUEENS CROSS DRESSERS EVERYTIME I GOT OFF WORK I WENT TO FIND HER SHE WOULD BE SEATED WITH A TALL DUDE SITTING ON A RECLINER SELLING DRUGS RIGHT OUTSIDE THE BASE THEY CALLED HIM LOW I COULD NOT STAND HIM HE HAD TWO KNOTS ON HIS FOREHEAD THAT LOOKED LIKE HORNS WERE THERE HE RAN THE DRUG SCENE HIM AND MY DAUGHTERS BEST FRIEND FAY HER FRIENDS WERE MY AGE SOME OLDER THAN ME I WOULD GO FIND HER THEY WOULD LIE SAYING SHE WASN'T THERE I WAS FED UP SO I TOLD LOW TO STAY AWAY FROM MY DAUGHTER HIS RESPONSE WAS I'M ALWAYS GOING TO HAVE YOUR DAUGHTER AS LONG AS I HAVE THIS HE SHOWED ME A BIG BAG OF DRUGS I TOLD MY DAUGHTER I DIDN'T LIKE HER FRIENDS BUT DRUGS CAN REALLY CONTROL YOUR MIND I SAW FIRST HAND WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI EXPOSED TO MY ABUSIVE JUNK SICK EX HUSBAND MY DAUGHTER SAW HIM DO HORRID THINGS TO ME TO US I WAS NEW TO TAMPA SHE ALREADY KNEW ALOT OF THESE CREATURES I TOLD HER STAY AWAY FROM THEM AND NEVER TAKE MY GRANDDAUGHTER AROUND THEM THAT'S WHEN SHE RAN AWAY TO WILDWOOD A VICIOUS CULT FREAKNICK GOD ONLY KNOWS SHE WAS MISSING AN ENTIRE WEEK I DIDN'T KNOW WHERE WILDWOOD WAS I DIDN'T KNOW THESE PEOPLE RUMORS YOUR DAUGHTER IS IN WILDWOOD CLOSE TO OCALA MY MIND WENT WILD AT THE THOUGHT OF WHAT COULD BE HAPPENING TO HER 7 DAYS HAD PASSED I WENT TO THE PROPERTY MANAGER I TOLD HIM MY CONCERNS AS A MOM THESE DRUG DEALERS TOOK MY DAUGHTER TO WILDWOOD HE TOLD ME HE WAS TRYING TO GET THOSE DRUG DEALING CROSS DRESSERS OUT I TOLD HIM THEY TOOK MY DAUGHTER SHE WAS GONE A WEEK SHE LEFT HER DAUGHTER WITH ME HE CONTACTED THE PROPER AUTHORITIES  HE TOLD ME THEY ARE OUT BEFORE I KNEW IT WIGS HEELS BRA WEED BAGS COCAINE BAGS WERE EVERYWHERE THEY HAD A FEW KIDS IN THAT HOUSE THE GRANDMOTHER WAS CALLED BY THE KIDS THAT LIVED THERE I SPOKE WITH HER SHE ASKED ME COULD I WATCH HER GRANDCHILDREN UNTIL SHE COULD DRIVE TO TAMPA FROM OCALA I AGREED I MADE THEM FEEL SAFE THEY WAITED AND PLAYED WITH MY YOUNGER CHILDREN THE GRANDMOTHER CAME DOWN SHE THANKED ME FOR KEEPING HER GRANDKIDS SAFE SHE ALSO TOLD ME THAT SHE KNEW WHERE WILDWOOD WAS THE HOUSE THEY HAD TAKEN MY DAUGHTER AND HOW TO GET IN TOUCH WITH THE DEALERS WHO TOOK MY DAUGHTER FAY LOW THESE GROWN DOPE DEALERS WERE MY DAUGHTERS FRIENDS THE MEN WORE DRAG AND GAVE BIRTH THE WOMEN WERE GOD AWFUL MEN THIS WAS WAY BEFORE THE RAINBOW SCENE THEY LIVED IN A CULT RECRUITED MY DAUGHTER WITH DRUGS I HAD THIS OPERATION TAKEN DOWN MY DOOR WAS COVERED IN MUD THREATS BROKEN WINDOWS BECAUSE LOW WAS FURIOUS I GOT MY DAUGHTER BACK HE HATED ME SO DID FAY I SHUT DOWN THIER DRUG HOUSE AND RESCUED MY DAUGHTER FROM THIS VICIOUS CULT TODAY I FEEL VERY BLESSED I ALSO KNOW MY WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FROM JUNK SICK OFFICERS SELLING DRUGS FOR CIRO GARGANO ARSON MURDER OF 9 RECRUITED MY ABUSIVE EX HUSBAND TO COMMIT ARSONS WITH HIM HAVING MY YOUNGER KIDS RIDE ALONG SINGING COME TOGETHER RIGHT NOW OVER ME BY THE BEATLES WITH SPECIAL AGENT LEROY HEIMBACH A SONG DESCRIBES BEING STRUNG OUT ON DRUGS HOW WE SHAPED MY AMERICAN FAMILY SPECIAL AGENT PAULA BRAND INSTALLING THE WIRES ON MY WOMB MY ABUSIVE EX HUSBAND JUNKSICK TAKING HALF OF THIS POWERFUL DRUG FOR HIS OWN PERSONAL SUPPLY I WAS BASICALLY BEING FORCED TO WEAR THE WIRES TO FEED MY ALL AMERICAN ABUSIVE HUSBAND DRUG HABIT BEING BRUTALLY BEATEN TORTURED RAPED IN FRONT OF MY CHILDREN BY THIS ALL AMERICAN MADE MONSTER FEARING FOR MY SAFETY IN BONDAGE WAITING FOR GARGANO TO BLOW MY BRAINS OUT WITH A CAR BOMB COMFORTED BY SPECIAL AGENT LEROY HEIMBACH SINGING MY GIRL TO MY CHILDREN WHEN HE GET WORD ON THE WIRE THAT I COMPLETED THE DRUG BUY SUCCESSFULLY THERE IS NO RIGHT OR WRONG WAY TO SURVIVED YES THERE ARE SCARS WOUNDS CASUALTIES MY AMERICAN FAMILY SURVIVED AND COPE MY JUNK SICK ABUSIVE EX HUSBAND IS STILL JUNK SICK SEVERAL BYPASS SURGERIES TO CLEAN THE CRACK PIPE THAT IS NOW IN HIS LEG A POLLUTTED STENT HARDENED BY SMOKING COCAINE FOR 40 YEARS AS FOR ME THE ONGOING SEVERE EMOTIONAL MENTAL BREAKS FROM TRAUMATIC EVENTS BEING HELD HOSTAGE SEXUALLY ASSAULTED BROKEN BONES BURNS HAIR RIPPED OUT REMOVING THE ROOTS AND HAIR SHAFT DOMESTIC ABUSE AT KNIFE POINT AT GUN POINT SECONDARY TO A BRAIN INJURY NEUROLIGICAL DAMAGE TRAUMATIC HEADACHES FROM GARGANO CAR BOMB IGNITING MY FACE AND SKULL COPING EVERY SINGAL TODAY I STILL GET THREATS FROM THE ARSONIST OF 9 FAY LOW THE MANY JAMAICAN DEALERS EXILDED AS A RESULT OF MY WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI TODAY I LOOK BACK AND IT COMPLETELY TRAUMATIZES ME I AM COMFORTED IN KNOWING SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW LIVES WERE SAVED MINE WAS MY CHILDREN LIVES THOSE AGENTS LIVES WERE SAVED SO I STILL FEEL BLESSED BECAUSE I AM AMERICAN I AM A SURVIVOR

I AM AMERICAN

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