My 1st Isnt My Last

i thought that not seeing you would turn my life upside down and i was right im happy, im smiling like never before, im laughing and i have not shed a single tear and here i thought it would be hard i will admit seeing you (even though it was a picture) brought back emotions i never wanted to feel the love, the anger, the sadness, the regret, the fear, the pain, the happiness, the laughs all of that came rushing back and i was stunned for a moment BUT i realized what i have now doesnt even compare to way back when writing this now is getting all of it out so i would NEVER go back im stronger now then i have ever been before hearing your name doesnt pain my heart any more i dont have to beat around the bush anymore im sssooo grateful because you've should me what i always deserve to have and i have it now