Mutation of Trust

Crumple in anguish at your feet Brainwaves flung, jostled with conceit Every nerve cluster sobs inside Grovel and pine for redemption Your will can't offer exemption Each passage throttles hope denied Dreams taunt moments with yearning Despite this lust to be learning Wisps of your essence drift away Echoes haunt my state of mind Still struggling to cast you behind Clutching to savor your bouquet Acting aloof to shield my pride Changes arise as cells divide While brittle tissues grow hollow Psychic commands don't shape my clay Since self doubt controls this foray A lone moth charmed by Apollo Soul expelled amid brutal force Manifestations bleed remorse From my adoring catastrophe Withered contentment toils to bend Even if faith fails to transcend The one I don’t trust now is me