Motivation Verse Fear

Face down, mind racin, calm down, thinkin loud. Exposive thoughts taken over my mind. Try'na rewind time, hopin to awake with all my issues in a case contained. As I remain contained in my box of uncertainty. Fears jerk my tears, not allowing my emotions to surface near. They grow, I know sooner than later I'mma blow. Slow, I raise my hand, lower my head, can't think straight I'm going brain dead. Instead of giving into defeat my body releases an internal instinct. Never minding the people who don't beleive in me. For they are the key; to my door of success. Tryin my best, never at rest. Kneeling, begging till the realization of my ignorance hits, leaving me swetty, I'm split in two. I still feel hatred. But life goes on, what can I do but live on, be strong.