?!Mother!?

MOTHER you’ve turned your back on me over a religion I did not follow I won’t sit here any more in self-pity and wallow You’ll NEVER know what I’m all about Because my love you’ve chosen to do without; As I’ve grown into an adult, you’ve missed so many important things in my life It’s like you’ve purposely stabbed me in the heart with a knife; You’ve lied to me forever about my dad, A man I never in my life ever had; I was a reminder of the father you pushed away I’m sorry MOTHER if the truth I must say: I’ve apologized to you over and over, for running away too, my one big mistake Your love for me has always been fake, You were NEVER there for me in the first place To you I was nothing but a disgrace, That’s okay though, I’m now grown The pain I felt once upon a time, to you will remain unknown; I do miss you, think of you often, but I need you no more You used to hurt me to the very core It has now been so many years I no longer shed any more tears; I at one time would sit and wonder what could have been, through many days and nights Sorry I grew up and you lost your control and all your former rights; I never could do anything to win your heart You never loved me right from the start, I wasn’t able to bring you any kind of joy Why was that MOTHER? YOU told me repeatedly it was because I wasn’t a boy, You couldn’t even be proud of me when I did wonderfully in school Dang MOTHER that just wasn’t cool; In front of others you were so nice I knew differently, you were cold as ice It was like living with Jekyll and Hyde No matter what happened you were never on my side; Several people mourn a mother whom death wasn’t able to survive While you MOTHER get to be here very much alive, I used to hate you more that words could say But no longer I’ve found another way, I’ve now let all my past feelings out I no longer have to scream and shout The pain in my heart, mind and soul is now gone, and I’ve become the bigger one, To me this is now the end of us, I don’t fell guilty anymore, I am so done; Finally at last I can close the door in your face Because GOD has given me peace, I am now in a different place!!!!!