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?!Mother!?

MOTHER you’ve turned your back on me over a 
religion I did not follow
I won’t sit here any more in self-pity and wallow
You’ll NEVER know what I’m all about
Because my love you’ve chosen to do without;
As I’ve grown into an adult, you’ve missed so 
many important things in my life
It’s like you’ve purposely stabbed me in the heart 
with a knife;
You’ve lied to me forever about my dad,
A man I never in my life ever had;
I was a reminder of the father you pushed away
I’m sorry MOTHER if the truth I must say:
I’ve apologized to you over and over, for running 
away too, my one big mistake
Your love for me has always been fake,
You were NEVER there for me in the first place
To you I was nothing but a disgrace,
That’s okay though, I’m now grown
The pain I felt once upon a time, to you will 
remain  unknown;
I  do miss you, think of you often, but I need you 
no more
You used to hurt me to the very core
It has now been so many years
I no longer shed any more tears;
I at one time would sit and wonder what could 
have been, through many days and nights
Sorry I grew up and  you lost your control and 
all your former rights;
I never could do anything to win your heart
You never loved me right from the start,
I wasn’t able to bring you any kind of joy
Why was that MOTHER? YOU told me repeatedly 
it was because I wasn’t a boy,
You couldn’t even be proud of me when I did
wonderfully in school
Dang MOTHER that just wasn’t cool;
In front of others you were so nice
I knew differently, you were cold as ice
It was like living with Jekyll and Hyde
No matter what happened you were never on  my
side;
Several people mourn a mother whom death 
wasn’t able to survive 
While you MOTHER get to be  here very much 
alive,
I used to hate you more that words could say
But no longer I’ve found another way,
I’ve now  let all my past feelings out 
I no longer have to scream and shout
The pain in my heart, mind and soul is now gone, 
and I’ve become the bigger one,
To me this is now the end of us, I don’t fell guilty 
anymore, I am so done;
Finally at last I can close the door in your face
Because GOD has given me peace,  I am now
in a different place!!!!!

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