Mother

Was I never enough or was I always too much? Or was I just right there missing your touch? How could you break it through Life gave you life but placed these crazy challenges Upon you You had me, I wish I had you You saw me, unsure what you saw when you realized I was not like you I was me, just me Somehow your heart was so hurt, so stuck, so encaged That all you wanted me to be was Free I see now mother You wanted me to be free of your pains Free of your sins Free of your chains But you could never let go And how could you teach your daughter the unknown? And seeing me walking wildly in the night Made you see in me the beast you abhor Your daughter became the beast you wanted to be But in desperation you pedestalled me When I free-fell to the ground you complained of my scene Then we sat in hell over tea What a nice day was that, truly You heard me for once I saw you, more than just my old glances You are beautiful Broken Now you mending Becoming Awoken Now you are finally bending To accept all of me To see me more than a daughter that looked like someone you pushed from your womb but at any chance you said My mother was other someone’s because of how I spoke because of what I smoked because of what I did I am yours I am yours Cant you see I’m not a phony I’m not a smart ass I’m not a titanium beast I’m just me I made myself this strong To accept that you never made me home Because your house was just a prison In that case, thank you For trying To make me free For trying through me To be free Can we both embrace Without chains Without covering our tastes Just That fact that I love you You love me And maybe we can build A healthy We?