Moment of Weakness

I had a moment of weakness And the tears came on suddenly I was afraid they'd feel like they used to Back in that place that I didn't want to be I thought the worst of my healing was over Water under the bridge, we'd made amends But when the intensity of that moment enveloped me It gave me doubts about where I had been I allowed the emotion to wash through me Conscious self-care, again, my true best friend I needed some gentle space between us A restful nap was like a Godsend It's not that you did anything wrong You are single, free to do as you please And as much as I'd like things to be different My struggle is me, remembering my place I don't expect you to understand I don't want you to feel sorry for me It's just that you are the reason When my emotions get the better of me Maybe it took this moment of weakness To remind me there's still work to be done That the process of healing is not linear And not to discredit about how far I've come Yes, my healing heart is still tender It needs to repair one moment at a time Allow tears to shed some perspective Embrace my weakness as grace in disguise January 17, 2021