Mixed Feelings

My heart is troubled, As the calm waters get rippled, My thoughts are tossed as in confusion I grumble, Safety eludes me for my fears get me startled, I do not want to lie, But the truth I cannot hide, I do not want to see you, But my heart cannot beat without you, I do want to cry, Yet my emotions sucks me dry, I do not want to live in a state of disbelief, yet my faith dwindles in life's reefs, I now live in a troubled heart, Where my life is torn apart, In a disturbed world do I dwell, For my pains indeed swell,