Mistakes

I made the mistake of bring myself to your level. I regret putting myself into this situation without looking both ways like my mommy taught me. I regret not dotting all my i's and crossing all my t's. Everytime I shed tears knowing you wasn't trippin over me. Everytime I laid down with you and letting you hurt me because it made you happy. Everytime I thought I could press rewind. Everytime I looked too deep into the future instead of living in the here and now. Every lie I told you because you liked when I stroked your ego. I regret keeping that one secret from you because if you knew you'd be crushed beyond workds. I regret becoming the monster that I am. I made the mistake of putting up a front and acted like everything was fine. I cared too soon and too hard. Every lie I believed. I regret following my heart. For being so naive. Sometimes I regret that I'm here. He didn't want me so why did she care? I regret that I became an ******* and ended up being everything he is and was. I made the mistake of being what I promised myself I would never become. I regret that no matter where we go in life you will always have a big piece of my heart. I regret that I let my friends treat you like dirt behind your back and let them smile in your face. I regret that I am apologizing for my mistakes I keep making the mistake of blaming my traits on genetics.