Missing You

I'm missing you today Remembering mornings of quick hellos And nights of close connection and deep conversation Wondering if you have similar pulls tugging at you to break the silence No matter how subtle or subdued In the here and now I'm trying to hold fast to the progress I've made Gently reminding myself not to reach out While at the same time, dismissing thoughts that want to sway and convince me to Because if I do I risk getting caught in the curse of those feelings Entangled in the whimsy of it all Falling into the illusion that you still love me And wanting to believe that you still do I just can't handle that again Because when I fall It takes every last ounce of strength in my being to get back up