Missing Soul

I'm a product of disappointments and nullification And that's the reason why I make maleficient acts I hate seeing persons contentment towards another person I'm so stubborn to break their hearts I like playing the feelings of another person To make them feel the same feeling of hatred I doesn't need love nor affection, destruction is my satisfaction To bury them from frustration is all that I wanted Revenge is the only formula I have right now Making people's life miserable by involving their emotion I'm thirsty and I wanted to drink the tears that falls from their innocent eyes I'm craving and eager to see their evil side of personality I've changed a lot since the day they criticize my worth They take away all the confidence I have Now I'm drained trying to find myself in the middle of puzzling speculations Can I bring back the soul I lost through reincarnation? How can I fixed myself if some part of me is imprisoned in the past? Can I turn back time to unlock the jail towards forgiveness? Or I'll just let myself imitate the acts of those people who hurt me? But how can I make things right if everything I see about my attitude is wrong I'm missing some part of me that I need to regain The part of me that entertain positivity The part of me that makes people happy I'm missing the part that is completely incomplete right now They say eyes is the windows of our soul But when I look at the mirror I can't see the most complex part of me My reflection is suffering from an unrevealed mystery And then the tears fall but that tears is not that warm anymore