Mind of a Soldier

my heart is cold my mind is blank it feels like I have no gas left in the tank. the war took over I don't feel a thing is there someone out there that can revive me? On the inside I have so much pain but on the outside there is a smile on my face.I am a soldier until I die their is no retreat I will ride until I die. Don't take this poem thinking I am big and bad I just don't know how to ask for help were the area's that I lag