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Miles Apart

We live together Yet we live miles apart The blackness of addiction Damaging my soul’s heart. He works during the day I work through the night I believe in my dreams He believes I’ve no right. He’s two different people Sharing the same lies An intoxicating nightmare You can see in his eyes. In the sober state He denies what he knows But intoxicated beyond logic Like a volcano he blows. Heaving cruel words He stumbles here and there Mindless to the pain He induces without care. The distance between us Grows every day Making me question Why I bother to stay. Still I remember The man I once knew Handsome and compassionate He was my dream come true. His eyes once shined A mischievous green And his intimate touch Made me feel like a queen. It’s been eight long years Since our first blind date But the addiction he harbors Has sealed our fate. We live together Yet we live miles apart The blackness of co-dependence Only a victim can chart. Note: For 12 years I was married to a very abusive alcoholic--and finally after a miscarriage as a result of the abuse--I left. A year later I was set up on a blind date with a man I thought was my dream come true. Handsome, hardworking, compassionate, and downright sexy! I fell head over heels in love with him--a divorcee like myself--and 3 years later moved in with him on his hobby farm. He said I made him feel like a king--and I felt like his queen--this poem tells my story......

Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Date: 8/3/2009 1:03:00 PM
Sad, sad poem Deborah. I am so glad you are free of all this hurt, my thoughts are with you and your three children>>James
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Date: 4/30/2009 7:10:00 AM
co-dependence is an ugly town to live in. IIts only when your heart is irrevocably broken that you can possibly get out and begin again. All blessings to you.
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Date: 2/16/2009 1:31:00 PM
Deborah, the last two words of the third verse surely describe your ex to a T: "He blows." And I'm so glad you found someone who treats you like a queen! Great poem, Carolyn
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Date: 2/4/2009 10:13:00 PM
12 years is a long time to take. I'm glad you finally found someone that made you into a queen. Nice poem, chronicling our lives in stanzas sometimes helps us get over the bad past....Raul
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Date: 2/4/2009 11:43:00 AM
Difficult but courageous write. God Bless. I lived with it with my dad though he was never abusive and now with my son who I see little hope for between the gambling, lies and drinking. Losing everything hasn't changed him. Vince
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Date: 2/4/2009 8:37:00 AM
Deborah, your story in your poem is so heartbreaking. Your writing never disappoints, but I was so wishing this was not true. There is always hope, and I will keep you in my prayers. Life is often full of difficult surprises for many of us. My heart goes out to you. Love, Shar
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Date: 2/3/2009 5:48:00 PM
This is a powerful write that shows the heartache of a heart. Your heart has endured a lifetime of pain yet you breathe..most admirable..Love the poem and the rhyming actually was very good in the piece..not force it flowed naturally..very good write.
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Date: 2/3/2009 5:35:00 PM
The tragedy of these relationships is portrayed in a heartwrenching and vivid way in this poem. The emotion comes through your words. My thoughts and prayers go with you. Take care. Karen
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