Midnight Pain

The attack came at midnight racking me with pain! So bad, I thought I would go insane. I took some medicine for it... Relief came a little, I sighed, a bit. Wondering if these were my final moments.. What is death like ~does He come dressed in black or white? Above all is my conscience right? Shall I be going be to hell or to heaven? I don't want to go, I want my fresh breakfast in sunlight at seven! But..God, I won't see my daughter or grandson anymore, These two beings, full The attack came at midnight racking me with pain! So bad, I thought I would go insane. I took some medicine for it... Relief came a little, I sighed, a bit. Wondering if these were my final moments.. What is death like ~does He come dressed in black or white? Above all is my conscience right? Shall I be going be to hell or to heaven? I don't want to go, I want my fresh breakfast in sunlight at seven! But..God, I won't see my daughter or grandson anymore, These two beings, full of life, once I am behind Death's door! It gives one pause, to think..never more. So, I ask God for a few more years... With true friends, not those out to jeer. God knows my intentions, so I give my cat a hug, a kiss, and cheer! We can cry and moon over the dead with such passion! But what about the living, no, we show no compassion? Billions have died since the world began, for them do we weep. But to the living? We ignore them like unwanted sheep! Withholding love and destroying others? Then wonder..why we cannot sleep under expensive, soft covers!of life, once I am behind Death's door! It gives one pause, to think..never more. So, I ask God for a few more years... With true friends, not those out to jeer. God knows my intentions, so I give my cat a hug, a kiss, and cheer! We can cry and moon over the dead with such passion! But what about the living, no, we show no compassion. Billions have died since the world began, for them do we weep. But to the living? We ignore them like unwanted sheep! Withholding love and destroying others? Then wonder..why we cannot sleep under expensive, soft covers! 8/17/2021 7:30am PST