Peter Dome Poet Free verse

Mein Kampf My Sruggle

School did a lot of damage to me
And left it's scars
Even today without really realising it
It robbed me of my self worth
And memories of those days left me hurt
As depression took a hit .

I was never the lead actor or even on the stage
In school plays
I was always behind the scenes
While the best looking boy and school beauty Queen
Tool the main parts
They were the one chosen to head the boys Soccer team
Or be chosen as may Queen
With her long blonde hair it just wasn't fare.

Being told your lazy or dumb because you have
Have learning difficulties
Your too fat can't draw rubbish at sums
And in sports you cannot run
Makes you feel useless and stupid.

The emotional battering of a small shy child
Went on and on
At home it was very much the same
I was teased and called all sorts of put down names
And everything was my fault even if I wasn't there
And I'd be always compared to my Mothers friends
Perfect kids who were always better than me in some way.


Always made to feel embarrassed
Bullied and always harassed
Told I'd never get a job
And end up in jail
I was deemed to fail
And rejected all my life.

I locked myself away for many years
Couldn't cope with people and Life
And drank and shed so many internal tears
That burned more and more
Over my wasted years.

Now I have been successful to some extent in life
But the scars of memories are just below the surface
I've had to fight so many battles uphill
Alone always alone still
I'm fighting a losing battle in a war
I can never win.



Peter Dome.Copyright.2015. May.

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Alexis Y. May 17, 2015 at 12:34 PM As I read your poem tears started to flow.It took me back to hurtful memories I encountered as a child. In time I overcame my hurtful past one day at a time.You seem to be moving in the right direction as well.Peter you are great writer. -Alexis Peter Dome May 17, 2015 at 12:56 PM Thank you so much Alexis. I am sorry I made you cry, and you gad such a rotten time too. Al I can see at the moment is black and little future, I really appreciate your kind words. I can only pray for you and apologise this brought back painful memories. I thank you for your lovely compliment. my warmest best wishes. Pete.

Andrea Dietrich May 17, 2015 at 10:50 AM sorry to hear about this, Peter. I think you are winning the battle though!! I am sure nobody here thinks bad of you. I quite enjoy your poetry! Peter Dome May 17, 2015 at 11:09 AM Hi Andrea. been too long. thank you so much you are sweet. just going through a very hard time at the moment. take care. best wishes. Pete.

Jan Allison May 17, 2015 at 7:59 AM Such a heartbreaking write Peter - i can see this is many of the kids i work with who have learning disabilities and low self esteem:-( Hugs Jan xx Peter Dome May 17, 2015 at 8:07 AM Hi Jan. it must be very upsetting. I r ember our classes being very large 30 or more pupils. it must have been so hard for the teachers, but there was a lot of streaming, the ones who could learn, were from rich families, or good looking, got the most attention, and therefore achieved more.. it wasn't that I was so clever. I just couldn't concentrate. I was bullied at school then at home. so lived in a constant state of fear and sadness.thank you for all your support and encouragement. means a lot to me. I pray for those kids. best wishes. Pete.