Marriage Memory

I laid on the bed in silence.. He undressed me careless His sigh could make me cold I wept in my heart. The wedding ring is tighter Wedding string is suffocating me, But I dint want to breath As I was enjoying my silence..... His heaviness got inside my legs, His hands kept hurting my bosom, Still he thought I will bloom I laid silent I saw a smile on his face When blood, the symbol of love Spread on the bed But, he never knew IT was my innocence that bleed It was not my virginity. Tears rolled down my cheeks As I knew I am wearing another mask Mask of compromises, forgiveness And I could never be me, never again I will never be loved as a feel I will be loved as a word, My failure.... His phone kept beeping, I could see smile The phone blinked to make him smile He roared at me for not touching him But he never knew I was looking, To touch his heart, which might have been hurt somehow, someday!! As the messanger is on the phone, Never next to him. I wish I collapsed but my coffin is not yet ready...