Making Me Number One

Making me number one
18/07/2018

It came to me slowly... very, very slowly...

How best to show my love for my boys,
Stop buying their love with a plethora of toys.
Time together is time well employed,
Discovering pastimes we all can enjoy.

This sounded so easy when I said it to myself,
Harder to enact with an empty heart on the shelf.
Yes an accident had robbed me of my health,
But to not enjoy their company, hurt more than anything else.

I was lost in pain, drowning in opiate daze,
Unwilling, unhappy, unable to change.
My body bent, my mind in a haze,
6 years later its no longer a faze.

There was a price for treating myself this way,
I just didn’t know it was my kids who would pay.
So I made a promise I have kept to this day,
I will give the pills, the booze and cigarettes away.

Over the next Four years I have worked on myself.
I’ve retrieved my crushed heart from the dusty old shelf.
I swim and I gym and look after my health,
And I spend time with my boys over anyone else.
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Allison Avatar
July 29, 2018 at 3:01 PM
I have a huge lump in my throat reading your poem Jeff forget material gifts to kids, spending quality time with them is something they will remember forever:-) many congrats on your win:-) hugs jan xx
Kantor Avatar
July 29, 2018 at 4:49 PM
Thank you so much Jan
Toney Avatar
July 29, 2018 at 12:48 PM
Jeff, congratulations on your win! Very inspiring and brave. Nicely done :)
Kantor Avatar
July 29, 2018 at 4:50 PM
Cheers mate much appreciated
Gentry Avatar
July 28, 2018 at 11:25 PM
Congratulations on your win. This is the perfect example! Well done. A remarkable story. :)
Kantor Avatar
July 29, 2018 at 4:48 AM
As always I really do appreciate you Susan :)
Roper Avatar
July 28, 2018 at 5:53 PM
Jeff, congratulations on your win.. That is awesome that your life made a turn around. It is ashame it came at a prize, but a bigger prize at the end. Hugs Eve
Kantor Avatar
July 29, 2018 at 4:48 AM
Thank you so much Eve
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