Lucky me

Wow lucky me I came to you so free I’m leaving you broken Uprooted no tree No oxygen, no nothing Just barely even there That’s what happens when you give yourself to Someone who barely even cares How could you dare?! I’d scream from the pain Drown in my tears you caused And you would just stare With a sinister pleasure in your eyes With hands on my thighs I suddenly realized my torment turned you on I called on my angels to rescue me from your demons We created something beautiful with my eggs and your semen Have you ever desperately given yourself to Someone heart to someone waiting to pull the plug on it? How about ready to put a knife on it after running so many games on it? Have you ever loved somebody who wasn’t even who they claimed? Someone who “loved” you so much in the beginning? But hated you seconds later for everything they just praised? Lucky me I got to see what it’s like to experience The hell & betrayel Of a narcissist male Who put me in the coffin mentally & emotionally And couldn’t wait to hammer in the nails Didn’t blink or flinch At the thought of what he caused Just as long as the public image was good, all his problems were solved. Lucky me I got to see… I got to see that monsters are real And that they are not only in scary movies Or under my bed Or hiding in the closet Or a figment of my imagination Or something in ancient times But they live in our houses and our heads And sometimes we call them “mine” And sometimes we call them fine And sometimes we see the signs But we could never prepare for what’s on the other side. If I knew then what I know now, I would’ve hit reverse quicker and I would flee But when you’re caught in the dark web of lies of covert narcissism your vision is blurred and you can’t fully see But I got to see the monster fully now And got out finally so I guess lucky me ??