Love Is Pain Pain Is Love

My life is no longer my own Controlled by forces out of my control Why did he hurt me, why did he cheat. I break down and cry... So many tears...so many tears. I yell why me, why again, please tell me All I hear is silence and the lightly blowing wind. I dream of a place high and far away A place where peace lives Where hurt cannot touch me. Tired of this life..death I embrace... Weak you think me Strong you think of you You speak as though you have lived my tribulations.. And experienced what I've been through. I am not weak, I am stronger then you. I embrace the darkness Hunger for the feel of deaths kiss Knowing peace will soon be mine atlast. You on the other hand, cry and mourn in self pity and fear When your death is advancing near, soon to come to pass. My only fear the only one... can God forgive me..can He understand, I do not wish to disobey him and commit mortal sin I hope He can understand this pain this sadness of this life It's just to much for me to live. Years of pain, millions of tears One weight to many on my shoulders to bear I am ready to pass over to whatever place lies beyond Darkness envelopes me, my body still and so very cold From above I see myself, I smile I say rest is now mine, pain is no more... love is no more