Love Hate

Someone told me you hated me, Someone told me you didn’t care, Someone told me you didn’t want me near you, Someone caused me seizures, Someone caused me tears, Someone caused me the loss of my baby’s, Someone caused me more pain I thought I could manage. I don’t understand if it was all lies, Being told you are ignored because you are hated, Being told they don’t care for you and don’t actually want to help you, Being told they only want your money, Being told they won’t care for you the way I do, Someone told me so many lies or truths. How can I believe anyone truly cares, How can anyone believe I’m really loved, Not just by you, But by everyone around me, How can I trust when my whole life, My whole life it didn’t make sense. A parent says they love you and they beat you, A parent says they love you and do all sorts, A sibling hates you, How can you believe what real love is? What liking someone means? To really be needed by someone or is it just a lie? I don’t want to be here anymore, I don’t want to live, They all ask why, You want to know why? Because I don’t know if anyone really cares, Or really loves me.