Love and Hate In Marriage

From time to time I think of reasons why I stayed with you for so long, and come up with answers that never really counted as answers. Because I can't say I'm still with you, if the truth is "I shouldn't have". Your not my soulmate, your not my honor your not my pride, your a girl I refuse to give up. I love you, and I love the hate in this relationship while I hate the love you deserve, its easy to love hate, since it loves me. My future wife, my future husband you are and I cannot wait for the day we pile into our gettaway vehicle and make off with the love we stole, even if from each other. And I keep trying to make a soul mate out of me, as a final parting gift to the life im losing with you.