Lost Indecision

He wakes every morning already in pain He takes no meds because addiction lives with in him He checks his feet are they purple or blue Flat foot he can't stand unless he puts his foot strait in a shoe Will today be the day that the bullet takes the pain. Not suicidal its more if a quality of life decision Pain free no judgment no self hate no reason to see disdain Time to check the chamber nope still have the in decision What reason do we have to live duty to God bury are kin What beauty is left to hold us here chirping birds and cricket songs What truth and love among people can you find any where The judgment onto those in pain is cruel as any day is long We make them feel useless and weak When they got hurt by edifying you and me We about sparing money from are check Causs we are week minded and easily misled The amount we expect them to live on is unimaginable Yet we would say its plenty but most didn't notice Able body non saving and planing were crying 1000 a month wasn't enough need that plus 500 q week and a 1000 for each kid Never even realized how hypocritical you had just been Their is division being preached on social media Holding groups accountable for past sins Complaining of stolen lands and past imprisonment Well try to focus on were we are going not where we been If I might clear up one thing to the Victor go the spoils Thats what war is for no pretty but its how it works And everyone who wants to speak about treachery of the past Keep in mind as Americans all of us are guilty of the very same atrocities daily feeding slave labor child labor sex slaves gang violence just cause its not in front of you don't mean its gone take accountability of that then talk to ne about money for the now free I can manage another day my wit is sharp My eyes have no problems seeing I will stay grounded in truth covered with an understanding tarp But I will never loose my indecision because choices are why we all breath