Lost Blue

no longer at ease with myself- broken thrice yet i thrived- thinking thoughts no one dared think- shattered and in ruins- lusty desires from unending dreams- wishing those dreams turned to reality- forever wanting the love i seek so bad- forever at the mercy of your feigned emotions- will i even remember you name- a life of pain and hate- your voice is all i can hear- forever lost in this blue- destroyed, weak. And empty- but i can still feel your presence- i can still hear your voice- i can still hear you call- was this love something i created?- something i imagined?- wishing my dreams of you could turn to reality- hand in hand walking the still shore- listening to nature as it calls- but it was all a dream- nothing remains- just wishing wishes i will forever wish- forever broken- forever lost in this blue---