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Lost and Lonely a Message To My Souper Friends

Last year was a hard year with alot of bumps in the road.I have missed all my souper friends. Last April my father,uncle,were diagnosed with cancer.They are brothers and they found out on the same day.I didn't take it well and got mad and punched a steel beam.I have paid for it ever since. My father lost his fight and passed away July 30,11.I had to have 3 surgeries in august on my hand.It got a staph infection and was in the hospital for 2 weeks and a nursing facility for 48 days on IV antibiotics. After my dad passed I felt like my life was no longer worth living. Now I feel I should end my life. The date I have chosen is near. I hope you all do well on your poetry writing.There are a few people on this site,you know who you are,I want to thank you for everything you have done to help. Now I am lost and lonely and ready for peace.I hope my poetry legend will live on.

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Poet Destroyer A

Date: 10/25/2013 5:39:00 PM

hi Colleen, I'm going to visit you soon. ..know this ...I care. .. if God wants I will be in Oregon by December 2nd..cross your fingers. ...hugs and love...Pd

Hgarvey Daniel Esquire

Date: 2/7/2012 11:32:00 PM

Dear Colleen, I hope YOU'RE feeling better Please Write me on How YOU'RE Doing YOU are a Great POETESS I LOVE YOUR Pen LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER, YOUR Liege...Harry

Laila Andresen Mjelde

Date: 2/3/2012 3:38:00 PM

Strong feelings and sorry about your father, please dont give it up, you write beautifull poems.. Take care! xoxoxo Laila

Hgarvey Daniel Esquire

Date: 1/22/2012 7:49:00 PM

Dear Colleen, When YOU said in the last sentence ; "I hope my POETRY legend will live on." How Well it could if YOU are around to nuture, Your Daughter "Megan" in the Fine Artistry of POETRY. My Dear Colleen, why would one want to except an Advanced Time of Death; With an Eleven Year Old Mature POETESS. I seem to remember when YOU became a Grandma, for the 7th Time Do not give These Precious Gifts up so Early I Pray for YOU Everyday LOVE ALWAYS and FOREVER, YOUR Liege...Harry

John Loving Iii

Date: 1/17/2012 12:48:00 PM

see there is someone else out there besides me. that will miss you if you leave. did anybody tell you what happened to my April?

Robert A. Dufresne

Date: 1/16/2012 8:49:00 AM

Hi Colleen. Yes I saw this sad poem and commented on it before when you told me you had posted it. A well written piece describing all that has happened and the grief and confusion that can result. You are a dear friend of ours and we have seen that you have a talent for writing all kinds of things on differing subjects. Keep writing and remember to look at the good side and write about that also. that is every bit as real and you can do a great job of it. Nature poems maybe? God bless you, love

Lizzie Treetop

Date: 1/14/2012 11:46:00 PM

COLLEEN DARLING DO NOT DO THIS! Shattering Screaming Silence Your Death Our Hell Makes!

John Loving Iii

Date: 1/12/2012 11:24:00 AM

Sweetheart? Are you still out there? As you know I have this handycap. I can't be there with you. But if you read these words in a way you are with me. This the only way I have to reach you. And I hope and pray that we can be better friends. So please respond. If not to me any one.

John Loving Iii

Date: 1/12/2012 8:51:00 AM

Colleen, life is hard but we have to look forward to the time when trouble will be over. Its okay to have a nervous breakdown.we who are the world know how to take you off the field to give you a chance to catch your breath.but you have to come to us. Call the hotline and someone with a heart like mine will be there. John

John Loving Iii

Date: 1/11/2012 3:50:00 PM

is there piece? trouble don't last always. just stop eveything and resolve things one at a time. GET HELP. from a church they can help. tell them even if you don't believe. just start by telling them john h loving iii sent you. they won't know who i am but tell them anyway. love john

Date: 1/12/2012 8:43:00 AM

Imisspelled peace

John Loving Iii

Date: 1/11/2012 3:07:00 PM

why is God punishing me? think of an answer. will He love me again? He never stoped. are you passing His test? apparently not. do you trust Him? i don't think so. can you accept His judgments like you accepted your dads when you were small? do you have time to do something great so that people will know that your daddy taught you right. i don't know. you have to answer that one for your self. i'm here for you and i'll listen so dont be afraid to write. john

John Loving Iii
Date: 1/11/2012 3:46:00 PM

i only have one hour on a public computer. so i'm looking for you

Don Johnson

Date: 1/10/2012 11:06:00 PM

life is ever a struggle, get knocked down we must carry on, stay with us lovely Colleen, us soupers want you to belong....

John Loving Iii

Date: 1/10/2012 5:06:00 PM

Can't mail you on my mobil. So tommarow I will. Stay tuned jhl

Carol Eastman

Date: 1/10/2012 1:08:00 PM

I have found life a never ending struggle of physical, financial, and emotional trials... Still I reach out to others... There is always something or some one needing my help or blessings... The Lord will take us away when it is our time... While here, there are so many others like us who we need to reach out to... then help. I'm broke yet have taken in the home less, a child of abuse, and animals neglected and tortured... We are needed here. Stay with us... as long as you can. Sooo many need us... if only for a while.

Linda-Marie Sweetheart

Date: 1/6/2012 10:06:00 PM

HI COLLEEN..SEEMS U HAVE HAD YOUR SHARE OF HEARTACHE..SORRY ABOUT DAD..I HAD HAND SURGERY IN NOV. IN NJ AND AGAIN IN ITALY LOSING TWO FINGERS ON RIGHT HAND .. SO MY HUBBY IS DOING MOST OF MY TYPING NOW.. WAS OFF PS FOR SIX WEEKS..JUST RETURNED.. KEEP THE FAITH.. WE ALL STRUGGLE WITH THINGS IN LIFE BUT WE HOLD UP EACH OTHER IN FRIENDSHIP AND PRAYERS..LUV TO I..

Sara Kendrick

Date: 1/6/2012 2:08:00 PM

Sorry to hear of your father's death..Our fathers are such an important person in our lives..Soup Mail..Sara

Hgarvey Daniel Esquire

Date: 1/5/2012 9:52:00 PM

Dear Colleen, I can not express My grief to lose such a valueable POETIC Partner Let Life be YOUR guide, not Death; YOU have so much to offer to YOU to me To seven Grandchildren Do YOU not no of any kind of LOVE Please Write me again I LOVE YOU Colleen, let me live a few more Years ALWAYS and FOREVER YOURS...Harry

Hgarvey Daniel Esquire

Date: 1/5/2012 7:09:00 PM

DEAR Colleen, You Listen to me Young Lady What the Hell kind of talk is this I am still recouperating from a Lung surgery where they took half of my right lung with a tumur a little bigger than a golfball I Lost my foster "MOM" and after 40 Years of losing my Wife on OUR Wedding Day my Father in law died in his Will he left me a Letter telling me LENORE was 3 months Pregnant It would have been a Girl I plan on staying around as I Pray YOU do LOVE YOU Colleen YOURS ALWAYS and FOREVER...Harry

Robert A. Dufresne

Date: 1/5/2012 6:54:00 PM

a tough time of it for sure Colleen.! Don't forget that God loves you more than you could ever know. Always keep that in mind and keep on keeping on. You are still in my prayers.

Poet Destroyer A

Date: 1/5/2012 6:30:00 PM

Colleen, my heart has been touched by your poem... my boyfriend Nathan, has not experienced half the losses I have... so he does not understand what i go thru when I'm sad..over my family losses.... and here you are.. and i can honestly say I know exactly how you feel... And lost and lonely... is the way i feel.... i share your tears.. no one will ever know how it feels to be me.... God bless you... and it will live on... thank you,..p.d

Kim Merryman

Date: 1/5/2012 5:35:00 PM

Dear Colleen, I'm new to the soup so I don't know you, but my heart goes out to you. Please reconsider your plan. Life is a gift. It's sad when you lose a loved one, but your life needn't end. It's okay to grieve and be sad, but don't let it take over your life. Is there any other family member or friend you can talk to? Maybe a counselor or pastor? Taking your life will only cause your loved ones more pain. Do you really want to do that?

Liberty Robbins

Date: 1/5/2012 1:24:00 PM

There is always something to hold on to, no matter how small. Find it and don't let go. Remember there are people who need you! You don't want them to feel the way you do now.

Liberty Robbins
Date: 1/5/2012 1:25:00 PM

Can your family handle losing you and your father?