Lost and Lonely a Message To My Souper Friends

Last year was a hard year with 
             alot of bumps in the road.I have
             missed all my souper friends.
             Last April my father,uncle,were
             diagnosed with cancer.They are
             brothers and they found out on
             the same day.I didn't take it well
             and got mad and punched a steel
             beam.I have paid for it ever since.
             My father lost his fight and passed
             away July 30,11.I had to have 3
             surgeries in august on my hand.It
             got a staph infection and was in the
             hospital for 2 weeks and a nursing
             facility for 48 days on IV antibiotics.
             After my dad passed I felt like my
             life was no longer worth living.
             Now I feel I should end my life.
             The date I have chosen is near. I
             hope you all do well on your poetry
             writing.There are a few people on this
             site,you know who you are,I want to
             thank you for everything you have 
             done to help.
             Now I am lost and lonely and ready
             for peace.I hope my poetry legend
             will live on.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2012



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Date: 10/25/2013 5:39:00 PM
hi Colleen, I'm going to visit you soon. ..know this ...I care. .. if God wants I will be in Oregon by December 2nd..cross your fingers. ...hugs and love...Pd
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Date: 2/7/2012 11:32:00 PM
Dear Colleen, I hope YOU'RE feeling better Please Write me on How YOU'RE Doing YOU are a Great POETESS I LOVE YOUR Pen LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER, YOUR Liege...Harry
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Date: 2/3/2012 3:38:00 PM
Strong feelings and sorry about your father, please dont give it up, you write beautifull poems.. Take care! xoxoxo Laila
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Date: 1/22/2012 7:49:00 PM
Dear Colleen, When YOU said in the last sentence ; "I hope my POETRY legend will live on." How Well it could if YOU are around to nuture, Your Daughter "Megan" in the Fine Artistry of POETRY. My Dear Colleen, why would one want to except an Advanced Time of Death; With an Eleven Year Old Mature POETESS. I seem to remember when YOU became a Grandma, for the 7th Time Do not give These Precious Gifts up so Early I Pray for YOU Everyday LOVE ALWAYS and FOREVER, YOUR Liege...Harry
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Date: 1/16/2012 8:49:00 AM
Hi Colleen. Yes I saw this sad poem and commented on it before when you told me you had posted it. A well written piece describing all that has happened and the grief and confusion that can result. You are a dear friend of ours and we have seen that you have a talent for writing all kinds of things on differing subjects. Keep writing and remember to look at the good side and write about that also. that is every bit as real and you can do a great job of it. Nature poems maybe? God bless you, love
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Date: 1/14/2012 11:46:00 PM
COLLEEN DARLING DO NOT DO THIS! Shattering Screaming Silence Your Death Our Hell Makes!
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Date: 1/10/2012 11:06:00 PM
life is ever a struggle, get knocked down we must carry on, stay with us lovely Colleen, us soupers want you to belong....
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Date: 1/10/2012 1:08:00 PM
I have found life a never ending struggle of physical, financial, and emotional trials... Still I reach out to others... There is always something or some one needing my help or blessings... The Lord will take us away when it is our time... While here, there are so many others like us who we need to reach out to... then help. I'm broke yet have taken in the home less, a child of abuse, and animals neglected and tortured... We are needed here. Stay with us... as long as you can. Sooo many need us... if only for a while.
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Date: 1/6/2012 10:06:00 PM
HI COLLEEN..SEEMS U HAVE HAD YOUR SHARE OF HEARTACHE..SORRY ABOUT DAD..I HAD HAND SURGERY IN NOV. IN NJ AND AGAIN IN ITALY LOSING TWO FINGERS ON RIGHT HAND .. SO MY HUBBY IS DOING MOST OF MY TYPING NOW.. WAS OFF PS FOR SIX WEEKS..JUST RETURNED.. KEEP THE FAITH.. WE ALL STRUGGLE WITH THINGS IN LIFE BUT WE HOLD UP EACH OTHER IN FRIENDSHIP AND PRAYERS..LUV TO I..
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Date: 1/6/2012 2:08:00 PM
Sorry to hear of your father's death..Our fathers are such an important person in our lives..Soup Mail..Sara
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Date: 1/5/2012 9:52:00 PM
Dear Colleen, I can not express My grief to lose such a valueable POETIC Partner Let Life be YOUR guide, not Death; YOU have so much to offer to YOU to me To seven Grandchildren Do YOU not no of any kind of LOVE Please Write me again I LOVE YOU Colleen, let me live a few more Years ALWAYS and FOREVER YOURS...Harry
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Date: 1/5/2012 7:09:00 PM
DEAR Colleen, You Listen to me Young Lady What the Hell kind of talk is this I am still recouperating from a Lung surgery where they took half of my right lung with a tumur a little bigger than a golfball I Lost my foster "MOM" and after 40 Years of losing my Wife on OUR Wedding Day my Father in law died in his Will he left me a Letter telling me LENORE was 3 months Pregnant It would have been a Girl I plan on staying around as I Pray YOU do LOVE YOU Colleen YOURS ALWAYS and FOREVER...Harry
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Date: 1/5/2012 6:54:00 PM
a tough time of it for sure Colleen.! Don't forget that God loves you more than you could ever know. Always keep that in mind and keep on keeping on. You are still in my prayers.
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Date: 1/5/2012 6:30:00 PM
Colleen, my heart has been touched by your poem... my boyfriend Nathan, has not experienced half the losses I have... so he does not understand what i go thru when I'm sad..over my family losses.... and here you are.. and i can honestly say I know exactly how you feel... And lost and lonely... is the way i feel.... i share your tears.. no one will ever know how it feels to be me.... God bless you... and it will live on... thank you,..p.d
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Date: 1/5/2012 5:35:00 PM
Dear Colleen, I'm new to the soup so I don't know you, but my heart goes out to you. Please reconsider your plan. Life is a gift. It's sad when you lose a loved one, but your life needn't end. It's okay to grieve and be sad, but don't let it take over your life. Is there any other family member or friend you can talk to? Maybe a counselor or pastor? Taking your life will only cause your loved ones more pain. Do you really want to do that?
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Date: 1/5/2012 1:24:00 PM
There is always something to hold on to, no matter how small. Find it and don't let go. Remember there are people who need you! You don't want them to feel the way you do now.
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Liberty Robbins
Date: 1/5/2012 1:25:00 PM
Can your family handle losing you and your father?
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