Lose my head

Down on my knees seems like the only place that you want me to be- because when I get up close, you can't seem to breathe- up in your face, your voice laced with distaste- luck a bug under your shoe- or a tie in your lace- When I open my mouth you distract it- keep me focused on only what you like- if I wonder to close I might lose my head. Cheater in my bed I am losing my- keep me on the ground but the clouds seem so nice- tell me it's not true not him. not you. give me a reason to stay or I have to go, Don't expect me to stay if you want me on my knees. I need you to be able to breathe, To let the lies flow out like the tears on my cheeks I can’t stand the sound of distaste, The sound of you begging me to stay. Squash those doubts that you know very well are justified. Unravel every part of me that still trusts you. Shut my mouth, but this time you use tape. Close my eyes, then make me blind. My neck in a guillotine Oblivious, just the way you like me. Face on gravel Now I know what you have done. Soul in the clouds, No way back down. No way back- No way out. Tell me it’s not true. Tell me that's not my body 3 feet away. Tell me that it wasn’t you. My ignorance, it was bliss but now I can’t feel below my neck. Wait- Not my neck-