Looking Back

Looking back wishing you were here. Closing my eyes to see your smile. Inhaling to take in your smell. Wrapping my arms around me to feel your touch. Looking back on so many feelings. Distant memories flashing through my head. So many regrets and yet no apologies for actions. So many second thoughts and yet no second chances. Looking back on running my mouth. Words sharper than any knife cutting deep. Drawing blood dark red flowing away too quickly, like our love flowing away. Looking back realizing all too late. Mistakes made causing compounded multiple loses. Emptiness full of pain and anger, lessons learned way too hard, way too late.