Longings

Longings.... Should I have let you catch me You, with your wayward words Crazy schemes and narrow roads Should I have let you hold me You, with your wide arms And not so serious nature Easy smile and wistful words Should I have let you touch me You, who made me smile Forget today and its troubles Should I have let you in You, who I felt connected to An understanding I had not felt in a long while Should I have You, who felt inadequate Who thought he was not good enough ? Should I have When you didn't trust me You who didn't tell me why Who thought I was too good I wanted to I could not You were too close And I was too open You held my hand And I saw who you are But you did not trust me And I knew you could hurt me In the worst way ...... And yet.... Here you are Rummaging my mind...